For the third year now, I am on a mission to lose my upcoming age in pounds before my birthday. I'll be 43 on October 31st, so this year, I want to lose 43 pounds by then. Clearly I haven't been successful in this quest the last 2 years. This year, I reset my SP goals and tickers when I officially started 2 weeks ago. As of my last weigh in, I was down 6.8 pounds, so well on my way. I fear I may have reversed much of that progress this weekend though. Tomorrow's weigh in will tell I guess.
It's been a long time since I've blogged, even though I've been around on SP consistently. I just haven't been making the time to blog -- I've felt resistant somehow. I think the writing does help me work things out though, so I am setting a goal to blog more consistently. Might try my hand at a monthly vlog as well. I dislike seeing myself on camera, however, I think it might be a good way to see progress as I lose this weight.
Speaking of progress, I've been looking back over my SP awards. I originally joined in May of 2008 (so 5 years ago), but didn't really participate consistently until the end of March of 2012. Looking at my awards, I see that every month since April 2012, I've earned Consistency, 250 Fitness Minutes in a Month, 500 Fitness Minutes in a Month, and 500 Sparkpoints in a Month. And there were only 2 months since last April where I didn't earn 1000 Fitness Minutes in a Month. I think that kind of consistent commitment to thinking about my health is a Woo Hoo moment, so I'm patting myself on the back for that
Speaking of looking after my health, I've been doing a few things in that area. I have long struggled with my lapband and the issues are slowly getting more pronounced. I spoke with my clinic about the possibility of having the band removed. They said I need to have another barium swallow test (my third in 6 years) before they will do anything further. It took a couple of months to get scheduled for that test, which I had 2 weeks ago. I'm pretty certain the test showed no issues with position of my band (which is what I was expecting), because I haven't heard anything from my local doctor, and the radiologist who performed the test said he would let him know of any problems within 24 hours. I still have to go get a CD of the test to send to the clinic where I had my surgery done. However, I'm sure they will not see any issues with positioning, and they will not want to do the surgery to remove the band. Thus will begin the long and likely painful, and possibly expensive (because the clinic charges to remove a band if they do not deem it medically necessary) process of advocating to have the band removed. I am going to try to work with my local doctor to see if he will help advocate for the necessity of removing the band. Almost every morning, I now wake up feeling as though I've swallowed a golf ball (new complication) making it impossible to even take in liquids in the the morning, about half of the time, eating causes severe heartburn, even though I take 2 types of medications to help with heartburn and motility, and a couple days a week, eating causes me to vomit. And this is all with a band that has no fill. I really want it removed as it obviously isn't helping me lose weight at this point, and in fact, I think it might be hindering me in that I'm restricted in what I can eat because of the band -- for example, raw vegetables and some kinds of meat are difficult/impossible for me to chew enough to get through the band without incident. So I'll keep advocating for removal and hope that the clinic won't charge for it. I truly believe that there is something wrong with the band that can't be seen through testing or that perhaps my body is just rejecting it somehow.
In other health news, a couple of months ago, I had a consultation at a sleep disorders clinic. I have been for sleep study testing in the past because I find I don't feel rested when I wake up, and I know I wake up frequently during the night. The study then confirmed that I do in fact wake up frequently but don't have sleep apnea. That was the end of it, so not particularly helpful. This clinic is quite different though. The doctor I spoke with asked a bunch of questions, did an examination of my head, nose and throat, and reviewed the results of the previous sleep study. He said that study showed that I was entering REM sleep within 12 minutes of falling asleep (it should take 90 minutes) and that I woke up 16 times during the night. Apparently when a person enters REM sleep that quickly, it's because they are very sleep deprived. He told me that he thinks I may have a condition called upper airway resistance syndrome that is relatively common in women, but not detectable by traditional sleep study tests that only test for sleep apnea. He said that my mouth is the size of a 10 year old child's mouth, but my tongue is a normal adult sized tongue, and that when I fall asleep and everything relaxes, my body is struggling to breathe so basically keeps me in a state of wakefulness most of the night so that I can breathe properly. When he asked me if I wake up with headaches and sore throats (yes! Almost every day) and finally said "you must wake up feeling Iike you got hit by a truck", I wanted to kiss him. I thought I was lazy or crazy or maybe both, because it seems like no matter how much sleep I get, I always wake up feeling horrible. My boyfriend has always complained about my loud breathing and I just figured he was overreacting, but this doctor says that normal adult sleep breathing should be soundless. So now I have an appointment for a sleep study on May 29th with much more sensitive equipment to allow him to truly diagnose whether I have this problem, and if I do, we can look at treatment options.
Well, that's a partial update on what's been up with me for the last little while. I have much more to say, and in the interest of breaking a book up into chapters, I'll stop here and pledge to write more often. Maybe even another blog later today.