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Detoxing My Body and My Mind

Monday, May 20, 2013

I spent a VERY relaxing Girls weekend up North with my dear family... I look forward to this outing each year. It is a true vacation that is responsibility free. There's just one problem... I am from a family of big eaters, and I fit right in! Along with all of the lounging that comes with Girls Weekend, comes a weekend filled with stuffing my face. And that's pretty much exactly what I did. I've been wavering back and forth for months trying to get back on track, just towing the line... And this weekend outing came at a very vulnerable time for me. I completely threw in the towel and dove in. I ate what I wanted, how much I wanted, how often I wanted... I felt weird, like I just couldn't shove enough into my face all weekend. Certainly not on my list of proud moments to say the least! But, before I let my guilt come over me, I noticed something. Besides literally eating myself sick (which I literally was), I was craving fresh food by the end of the weekend as if it were a piece of chocolate cake! Today, I couldn't get enough raw fruit or veggies. I had fresh fruit for breakfast, and again for snack. I had a garden salad with chicken and nuts for lunch, and for supper I made my Spring Pea and Spinach salad. As I write this blog this evening, I'm actually salivating over the thought of another garden salad tomorrow. How weird is that... to actually be craving good and power building foods like this instead of the sweet and salty snacks that usually catch my eye. I think it is my body's way of telling me that I need to detox. As I got home from work this evening, I was eager to go for an evening walk. The weather was so cheerful and refreshing tonight. I feel so alive tonight. Not that I'm proud of my binging this weekend, but I've been so back and forth for so long, that maybe this plunge is what I needed to do to get back to what I know works. The thought of eating one more Scotcharoo bar actually sickens me right now. I really wish I felt that way all of the time! I know they will sound good again, but I am thankful that my body is craving what it NEEDS right now. So, I guess the moral of my story tonight is that even though I have been wavering all of this time, I know in my heart that there was a small part of each day that I did make a good choice for myself regardless of how small it may have been, and however many bad choices seemed to overshadow it. I know now that my Spark is still inside of me. I think this weekend was about me trying to extinguish it, but somehow it just would not go out. So, maybe there is hope for me yet...
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