It's been a while since I've written a blog post. But today is a big day so I feel like sharing.
About nine weeks ago I rejoined SparkPeople with the goal of losing quite a bit of weight rather quickly. The reason? I had just been cast in the role of a lifetime and was required to show a little skin. At the time, I was fairly pleased with my body but I wanted to make sure that I didn't feel self-conscious onstage.
I started following Tim Ferris' 4 Hour Body eating plan, which for those of you familiar with Atkins or Southbeach, is very similar as it is a low carb/high protein approach. Tim encourages eating a lot of legumes and allowing yourself one cheat day a week. It went really well for about three weeks; I even got down to 148! A weight I haven't weighed since high school.
But then the inevitable happened. To be brief: I got really sick of beans.
I've read the articles, the warnings against really drastic diets. I consider myself to be a very knowledgeable person when it comes to nutrition and exercise (that's not to say I always follow all the rules), but somehow I could not resist the temptation of an eating plan that promised a significant change in a short amount of time. I totally fell down the rabbit hole. Way down.
Two weeks ago I stopped the 4 Hour Body plan. I started exercising way more (like I used to) after being inspired by this blog post:
I have always been a very strong girl, totally capable of kicking guys asses up and down the mountain whether on skis or in hiking boots. But somehow I lost my appreciation for my strength in a quest to look more like waifish Natalie Portman (she played my role in the movie version of the play I'm doing). I am not Natalie Portman. Because of the way I'm built (bones-wise) I will never, EVER look like her. Once I realized the ridiculous standard I was holding myself to, I was able to let it go.
I realized that by the time the show opens (6 weeks from now) I can still have a rockin' bod with a healthy diet and lots of exercise. My new goal is to sharpen up my "wiggly bits." Not to weight a certain number, not to look like a certain person, not even to fit into a particular dress size.
And I do want to acknowledge that the 4 Hour Body plan wasn't a complete waste. It did teach me a lot about how really healthy foods make me feel so much better in general, plus I can usually eat way more of them as opposed to tiny portions of the unhealthy stuff. This experience has given me a mindfulness that I was lacking before.
Just goes to show, you can hear the same stuff over and over again but sometimes you have to experience the fall yourself to really be able to understand.