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One year from now....

Thursday, May 16, 2013

I hesitated to write this blog because it can be yet another way to be on the computer INSTEAD of "on the mat" or with the free weights or on my bicycle. But It will be short-and-sweet.

I'm pushin' 150 lbs. and that's scary...and moves me toward that "out-of-control" feeling that I dread so. I'm afraid I've been sliding down a slippery slope ever since returning from Ecuador, and not just in terms of food and exercise, but generally feeling lethargic and vacillating and unproductive. I have had this tendency for many years, and have always had to fight it...and the fight goes on!

I am using various strategies~~

~ specific achievable steps in terms of movement, which I will track

~ tracking ALL food

~ limiting computer time (working on a strategy here, it's harder than it sounds -- for me)

~ reading _Enough! A Buddhist Approach to Finding Release from Addictive Patterns_ by Chonyi Taylor, which I think hones in on the root cause of much of my dysfunctional behavior

~ practice daily gratitude, posting in the two communities if possible

I know it's up to change my mind/behavior to change my life.

And I also know that self-blame and self-judgment are counter-productive.

Today is DAY ONE, the first day of the rest of my life.
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    Thank you for sharing. emoticon
    1803 days ago
    I can really relate to this blog. Thank you for taking the time to post. I struggle with the same problems. Thanks for being my tagged friend and mentor.

    “Love yourself—accept yourself—forgive yourself—and be good to yourself, because without you the rest of us are without a source of many wonderful things.” ~Leo F. Buscaglia

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    1817 days ago
    Just what I need right now. Starting again... today! emoticon
    1818 days ago
    Love, love love to you. xxx

    Little steps add up.
    1836 days ago
  • BILLB000
    Wonderful perspective. You are sooo right. Starts with awareness. Then a plan. Remember it is ok to start anywhere. And at your pace. I have never been away for 3 months, but I have made many trips into Central America, and I found when I come back it takes weeks to re -acclimate myself. Returning always seems a bit of a let down for some reason. Be kind to yourself.
    1848 days ago
  • KANOE10
    I love your posts. I like your body hears what your mind says.
    Today is a wonderful new day. I hope you have a great day and get back on track.

    1849 days ago
    Just love that idea that your body hears what your mind says . . . of course it does! So gotta get my mind saying different stuff pronto!

    I do believe that we never reach a place where this is done -- it's constant vigilance, much like nutrition tracking -- but has to do with the nutrition for the soul instead.
    1849 days ago
  • EOSTAR_45
    A thoughtful and heartfelt blog Maha. Love the wonderful graphics and sayings. I so hear you.


    ~ Ubarikiwe (Blessed be)
    1853 days ago
    emoticon mi amiga. I know you can!
    1855 days ago
    Right with you, my friend. I would echo many of the lovely comments here, especially to be gentle in your determination.
    Love to you,
    1855 days ago
    I think a little lethargy is almost to be expected as a letdown after that wonderful trip you took -- and especially after all that time you spent with your friends.

    Whenever I return from a long-planned-for special adventure, my daily life can seem a little ho-hum by comparison.
    And I usually resist getting back into the groove.

    Your strategies sound as if they will do the trick, though. Tracking food and feeling grateful, as well as reading about ways to change behaviors should be very helpful. They will help you up and off of that slippery slope.

    Then, maybe you want to start planning your next adventure for after graduation.....


    1856 days ago
    I just love these...thank you !!
    1858 days ago
    thank you for the words to think about
    1858 days ago
    Welcome to the new home of your beautiful self!
    1858 days ago
    On dear, sweet Maha ....

    Words to live by ...

    1858 days ago
    Just sending love your way. I've learned so much for Buddhist teaching about habits and watering the seeds of what you want to grow. Sounds like you are.
    1858 days ago
    Delicious morsels of thought! emoticon Yum-Yum!!
    1859 days ago
    Dear Maha, Thank you so much for this beautiful blog! You are one special lady and you have enriched my life in many ways. Many thanks my friend! Elaine
    1859 days ago
  • FARRAH511
    Thanks for sharing
    1859 days ago
    I know that slippery slope. I think the thing that got me off of it was going on that cleanse. Not only did it clear up some physical discomforts but it cleared my head too!
    Keep on keeping on!
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    1859 days ago
  • SAVOY1
    Dear Maha - yes, yes, yes, & yes! We're all on this same journey with you, ...learning to loving ourselves and embracing our own imperfections the same way we do in others and in nature, while striving to be our best, happiest, healthiest selves.

    In solidarity~
    1859 days ago
    What you do will be right. I am sure of it.
    1859 days ago
  • SCOOTER4263
    Lovely,Maha. I have complete faith that you can get yourself back to where you want to be. I'll be looking up that title, too.

    There! They have it on hold for me at the library.
    1859 days ago

    Comment edited on: 5/17/2013 7:39:18 AM
    Thanks for another wonderful and full of insight
    blog. I hear you loud and clear. I am finding that
    I am also feeling lethargic and know I have to push
    myself to get motivated. I am doing small baby steps.
    Thanks for always giving me something to look
    into and follow through. I love all the quotes.
    Have a great weekend. emoticon
    1859 days ago
    emoticon Blog Maha... emoticon so much for sharing.
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    1859 days ago
  • _VALEO_
    We live in a society where lethargy or laziness is not accepted. Sometimes it is good for the mind and body to do NOTHING, to resist this guilt. You lived to the fullest since the beginning of the year, you might need to "digest" all that.

    That said, I am with you for all the points mentionned; I could make them mine.

    1860 days ago
    Thank you I like your blog, and also what your friends had to say, and it makes me feel like not worrying about doing all these other things (computer, and other distractions) And focus on getting done what I need to get back to me (health, exercise and eating, mind and body) Thanks again

    1860 days ago
    One day, a few days after seeing the post, "A year from now you will wish you had started today," I felt like just giving up. I was focused so much on how far I still have to go, rather than how far I have come. Not even along the weight loss lines, but the positive life changes I am making!!!

    Then I realized that not only would I be at (or surpassed) my goals in a year, but that "I will never get to where I want to be by staying where I am." There is much that I can do, and I will feel like giving up more than once, but the time will pass whether I have committed myself to this change or not. Let's make it good time...
    1860 days ago
    Oh Dear One - it is good to see you acknowledge that self-blame and self-judgment are counter-productive. You've got it going is so many ways, yet, you are not perfect? (imagine that!!!)

    Your plan is a good one. Beth totally struggles with logging also. I, on the other hand, rather enjoy it. How weird is that? I think it's a detail-minded Virgo thang!!!

    As you know from MY blog, I'm in the middle of a 2-week trial with The Spark Solution. I'm trying VERY hard to NOT weigh myself until the end of the two weeks. I've been doing GREAT on the eating part, and OK on the exercise. I think maybe with the heat the other day, I've been in kind of a slump.

    Am still hoping to do my "research" tomorrow. Haven't made it yet. Soon ...

    Be kind to yourself, my friend ...

    1860 days ago
    Great thoughts and HIGH applause for your efforts...have been trying to rally myself as well. No longer staying in the "bubble" and opening the door to cycling quickly leads to thoughts of "uh-oh, how am I going to lug these extra pounds up over those toughest of hills I know that await me in the Finger Lakes and everywhere else?" That fear has been a motivator. And NOTHING beats "tracking ALL food" IMHO...! :-) And that has always been and probably always WILL be the most difficult challenge for me to meet. Nothing works better for me than this.

    The book sounds interesting...I'll toss it on my list for those days way off in the future when I have TIME to! Here's another quote from my SP signature: "You yourself, as much as anybody in the entire universe, deserve your love and affection." --- Buddha

    Another thought still on the back burner but there nonetheless:



    1860 days ago
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