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Halfway Between Victory and Defeat

Thursday, May 16, 2013


When you get started you never expect to get there. If you make it to the end, you probably don't even remember it.

But when you are there, halfway through the journey, it can be difficult not to linger. At least, I'm finding it difficult not to linger. The road to this point hasn't been easy, but I've survived! I even feel like my current weight is an accomplishment. People notice. I can find clothes that fit. I can fit into the seats at concerts. I can go for a run, or a hike, or any other spontaneous activity, without the fear that I'll be the one lagging behind. I look back at my life and know that lots of happy times in my past were at this weight. Honestly, it's 'easy' to maintain here.

But I told myself in the beginning that I wouldn't settle for easy.

On August 18, 2012, I started this journey with this sentence in my journal:

I'm ready. To make a change... To make several changes... To be different... Better.

Even at halfway, I feel like I have accomplished this. But am I too far removed from my former unpleasantness to remind myself why I journey onward? I notice that I'm letting little things slide. I'm not completely honest on my food tracking. I don't accomplish every workout that I put on my calendar. I don't meticulously plan and journal like I did in the beginning. I let myself be swayed by outside influences instead of doing what I know in me to be the right thing.

I've made it this far. I know that I am strong enough to keep going.

Online definition of 'strong': possessing skills or qualities that create
a likelihood of success

I know I am strong enough, but am I motivated enough? determined enough? committed enough? persistent enough? Those are my goals for this week: be motivated, be determined, be committed, be persistent.

Any thoughts on breaking through the halfway point?
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    1863 days ago
    I was at that point. My approach was a recommit. Remind yourself of what you want, why you want it, and what it takes to get there. Write a blog about it. Put it out there that you are recommitting to your goals.

    Then look at it like day 1 again. Go and do all the things you did right on day 1. Drink your water, track your food, plan your meals, make sure you are exercising. Speaking of that, try changing your exercises up a bit.

    I know you will get motivated again. I think this Spark Solution may be just what you need right now to kickstart that recommit.
    1864 days ago
  • BRIW1234
    Well, I can say, I sure hope to be writing a similar blog and making it to my halfway mark. You inspire me to continue and hold myself accountable for making sure I am doing the actions and not slacking. I have a long way to go, both physically and mentally. Hopefully, continuing to set small goals will be what keep me going even at the half way mark. I don't have suggestions from experience. I only know it is working for me now. Thank you for your honesty and beautiful words.

    1864 days ago
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