Thank You For My Spark
Wednesday, May 15, 2013
I saw this quote today, and it really spoke to me:
“At times our own light goes out and is rekindled by a spark from another person. Each of us has cause to think with deep gratitude of those who have lighted the flame within us.”
About a month ago, I started reaching out to people on Sparkpeople. Not only did I want to make a connection with other people on the same journey, but I actually wanted to meet people in person. People who had the same goals and drive: to be healthier, exercise more and eat better. I knew then and continue to know that I cannot do this on my own. I am a junkie. I need people that I can check in with and will check on me. I need support but not just any support. I want support from other people in the battle. People who know what the moments of triumphant joy feel like, as well as the utter despair. I wanted kindred spirits. Losing weight isn't for the feint hearted! It's hard work, both mentally and physically in my case. Each pound is tied into knots with all kinds of emotions. These pounds were packed out in moments of joy, boredom, pain...food has been my constant companion.
My spark was flickering.
And then I decided that I wanted people, not food.
On a cold morning about a month ago, I met Becky. A fellow Spark sister. A mother. A warrior. An inspiration. A new friend. We met at our local YMCA and walked around the outdoor track. It was chilly, my out of shape body complained and begged me to stop. The laps fell away as Becky and I discussed our families, interests, and past successes and subsequent failures with weight loss. We laughed about fearing the other could have been a serial killer or unsavory in some other way. After all, who knows who or what is lurking around on the internet.
Before meeting Becky that morning, I can't exactly remember when I had exercised last. We walked two miles. At the end, we smiled and laughed together. Alone, neither of us would have exercised. Together, we did it! Together we have continued to walk and encourage each other.
I think that quote is fantastic, because it mentions sparks. I met Becky through Sparkpeople. She continues to help me find and remember my spark. The spark which drives me to continue exercising despite pain, despite discomfort, despite discouragement. I know I'm not alone, and for that, I am grateful.
Even more special is I know I helped and continue to help Becky find her spark. I think this is what keeps me going on the days I want to give up. Because as wonderful as the support is that Becky gives me, I want to give her the same. We both could come up with a million reasons to complain and give up. Instead, we make the time and support each other.
I am so grateful.
Thank you, Sparkpeople.
Thank you, Becky (AFTERMYKIDS).