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Wednesday, May 15, 2013

I did what I hoped I wouldn't. After weighing myself at the month mark, the disappointment ate away at my motivation. When my darling Lucy - dog died suddenly I justified my Reeses Peanut Butter Cup three day binge as grief. I was grieved. I was broken hearted but for every candy I ate I knew it wasn't grief. I knew that I was using grief. I knew that the real reason I turned to candy was my lack of weight loss.

That doesn't discount the grief. But the grief was an excuse. I also geve myself the green light afterwards to eat and sit. Then came the vacation, no holds barred on food. Then my other dog, Buck, fell and is critically wounded.

Life will always give me an excuse if I want to eat and be a sloth.

What's different now? Husband and I can't stand how we look or feel so we've been researching the real effects of being over weight. It's scary. Also, I learned that a middle-aged womans doesn't change for good for 8-12 weeks.
When I was young (and I mean in my '40's, I could reset and build new habits in 4 weeks. Evidently it takes double that for women in their 50's.

What a relief. I'm not genetically doomed to over weight and unhealthy. I'm not giving it long enough.

So, 8weeks, July 3 I'll weigh myself. Not until then because the risks on my childlike ego are too great.
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    Wishing you success in your new plan. Hoping the scale shows some good results.
    2138 days ago
    This is sad, but I hesitate to say that I think I felt worse when I lost my dog of 14 years than I did when I lost some family members. But dogs are so special.... our life companions, the ones who love us the most, who don't judge us and love us unconditionally. You were grieving, but you have accepted that the grief was not an excuse to eat. So now you know the consequences of not taking care of yourself and no matter what your age it is not too late to change... it is never too late. I am 54 and have discovered Spark as a incomparable journey towards health and fitness. You can do it, and it should be easier with your husband to do it with you. You are never doomed to be unhealthy if you want to change. Use the website as much as possible, talk with members, get involved and you WILL change.... for the better. If the scale doesn't work for you there are so many other ways to measure your success. Good luck. You can do this!! emoticon emoticon
    2138 days ago
    emoticon You have recognized the Problem and created a Plan. You are Half-Way to Success!! There are a LOT of Over 50 Ladies and Gentlemen on here who have Changed their Lives FOREVER. It may take 4 Weeks or it may take 4 Months or it could take 4 Years. The "Time" is not important. You have the rest of your Life to accomplish this.
    emoticon AND YOU ARE WORTH IT!!
    2138 days ago
    So glad you are back . I missed you on the team. We started another buddy challenge on the 5. Its almost over now but had fun. There are a lot of new members and we are trying to recharge. Best of luck. I know you can do this. Pam
    2138 days ago
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