"I won't give up because..." message board
Saturday, April 28, 2007
It's Saturday afternoon, Bob is at AJr's baseball game and I'm supposed to be going to out to shop (food and needs). I'm not feeling down, I promise I'm not. But when I came across this message board and realized I couldn't say ANY of the things I normally would - my kids, future grandkids, Kaile, Bob, my health, new clothes, an active retirement, whatever - I thought it would be best if I actually said so. Maybe it will help me figure out why and how to change it.
"I've read over this thread a few times, and have been sitting at my keyboard for awhile now, trying to think of what I could say that I really feel in my heart. I've given up so many times, even though I have all the best reasons to make healthy choices. I don't think I can do this (use a reason for motivation to help me stay on track). I wish I could. I feel like I've betrayed all those reasons in the past by not being successful (this has been going on for years), and I have no right to claim them again. It makes me very sad to feel this way. Elizabeth."