Tuesday, May 14, 2013
A few years ago, I put together a 30 by 30 list ( www.reynoldsreport.co
)- 30 things I wanted to accomplish by the time I turned 30. Well, I'm turning 29 next month and I haven't crossed off that many things. At the very top of the list is "Be Healthy."
When I started the list, I was in the middle of losing about 70 lbs. I felt amazing! I was eating right and exercising all the time. I was happy and on the road to being healthy. Since then, life has gotten in the way and I've gained back almost all of the 70 lbs like many of us do when we struggle with our weight.
I've written several blog posts in the past where I say I'm starting over or I'm back on track. But that implies that I failed in some way and that in the future I may get off track. But, I don't think I failed. Sure, I could have made better choices or gotten to the gym more, but that might have led me in a different path in life and right now, I'm happy with where I'm at mentally and in my career.
I'm not so happy, however, with myself physically. Now that I've gotten a lot of my life hurdles overcome, I'm looking forward to focusing on this part of me. It's been a really big struggle lately (pun intended) to do even the simplest of things. I went to Michigan for 10 days recently and, again, couldn't buckle my seatbelt on the airplane. I never want that to happen again. It's humiliating. I also had trouble with standing for so long during my friends wedding and had aches and pains like you wouldn't believe from the most simple tasks. I also recently moved to an apartment on the second floor. Moving day almost killed me. The stairs were horrible, my knees ached so bad I couldn't sleep that night, and I'm still sore from the physical activity. My knees and feet ache on a daily basis, no matter how much or how little physical activity I take part in. I can't live like this anymore. I'M ONLY 28 YEARS OLD!!!!
How am I going to get on the floor to play with my kids if and when I have them? How am I going to live long enough to meet grandchildren? How am I going to dance at my own wedding? The pain in running my life and I won't take it anymore.