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Trying to get my act together

Monday, May 13, 2013

I was scared to death to step on the scale since I haven't weighed myself since Sandy. I have been eating crap and feeling like crap. I gained weight in the past 6 months, about 20 pounds. Trust me it could have been worse. I was afraid it was going to be closer to 50 pounds. Let's just say the months of living in my car or staying at friends homes on and off when I finally caved in and accepted their invitations to sleep on their couch when the weather was just too cold to sleep in my car took its toll. I was eating too much drive thru, takeout, and sweets to self medicate myself with. Didn't medicate myself but instead made me feel sick and tired all the time. My numbers soared when I checked my glucose levels but it still didn't snap me out of it.

Then I said enough is enough. It also helped mentally that I had just moved into my own place. Not back to my house destroyed by Sandy as they are estimating it will be about 2 years before I can elevate and rebuild. It is tiny, but it is where I now call home and I am actually sleeping in a bed. Gosh does that feel good!

Yesterday I went out and bought a scale since mine was underwater with Sandy and had to be thrown out. Went to the Farmers Market and stocked up on fruits and veggies and decided Monday would be my start over day.

Today was Day 1 of back to Raw and I am happy to say it was 100% Raw. I am an all or nothing gal so it is easier for me to go 100%. Chocolate was calling my name all afternoon but I wasn't listening. Did not have any Raw chocolate in the house so I ate a frozen banana instead.

If I can get 3 days 100% Raw under my belt I will be on my way back to normal.
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  • TEDYBEAR2838
    SO Glad you have a place to call your own!

    I know you are a real survivor, never kid yourself
    about that. Times get hard and things are tough,
    but in the end, you will be stronger for it.

    It just does not seem like it right now.

    Take care, please keep blogging.

    1802 days ago
    Yvonne, you've been through so much and you have remained as positive as you can be in the situation. You are truly amazing! I'm glad that you have a place to call your own and a bed to sleep in. You'r getting there, one day at a time! ((((((BIG HUGS))))))
    1802 days ago
    You are amazing to say the least! Just Amazing! We have missed you so so much! Wish we were closer. You're doing it! emoticon

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    1802 days ago
    You can do it Yvonne!! You been through so much, so don't be hard on yourself. The only way to move is forward!! emoticon emoticon
    1802 days ago
    Good for you! This is cause for celebration. You are in your own place and ready to get back to what makes you feel whole. You have endured a great deal of unhappiness but also found kindness in your friends. I'm so happy for you!
    1802 days ago
    It's certainly been a long journey for you but how nice that things are moving in the right direction now! I've been watching and praying for you throughout this ordeal and am so happy for you!

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    1802 days ago
    Yvonne, wonderful news that you have a home again, I am SO chuffed for you.
    It's been a long journey but you've survived it hun!!!!!!! emoticon

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    1802 days ago
    I know you can do it.
    1802 days ago
  • L*I*T*A*
    so so happy to hear your great news.......
    even if it is not permenent it is yours till your home is rebuilt...

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    1802 days ago
    so happy to hear you have a home again! chocolate has been calling my name all day as well, thankfully there is none in the house! emoticon
    1802 days ago
    I am so out of touch with my spark friends. I have been under water mentally myself and my knee surgery set me way back.

    I am so sorry for the lose of your home and what must have been most of your things too, unless you heeded the warning and got out with a few important things. I just cannot believe the devastation to the land, homes and lives that storm caused.

    Had there ever before been a storm like that to the area that you lived.

    It is great to hear that you have a place to call home again. Yes, beds are nice. No more than nice they are essential to life. Just going on vacation away from my bed makes me miss it. I have never had to live in my car, praise God. Did though live in an old camper with no amenities and while it did have a bed, it was roughing it. It was parked on my horses ranch and that made it more of a home to me than I am sure your car was.

    You are a survivor and resilient and my prayer for you is that you get back on track to what you know is the right way to eat for you.

    1803 days ago
  • WILLOW49
    So glad you have a place of your own now! And I know you feel so much better eating raw, so good that you're back at it!
    1803 days ago
    I'm so glad you finally have a home to call your own. Everyone has been so worried about you with all you've been through since Sandy. Please take care.
    1803 days ago
    I'm glad that you have a place to call home. I hope that relieves your stress from being a vagabond.

    I sure wish that you could look at a shorter timeline for your rebuild.

    Keep up the good work on eating raw.


    1803 days ago
    You were on my mind...good to hear that you have a safe place to rest and call your own! :)
    1803 days ago
    You continue to be in my prayers. I love you. Call me if you need to talk.
    1803 days ago
    So happy to hear you're in a place to call home!

    Rooting for you!
    1803 days ago
    Yay! You can do it! I am not a raw vegan but I often like raw recipes and eating raw foods. Good for you that you're day was 100% raw. :)
    1803 days ago
    So glad you have a place you can call your own!
    1803 days ago
    I am so very happy that you finally have a roof over your head that you can call
    Today is the first day of the rest of your life ..

    I still eat raw although I have had to down size my teams ..
    This is the only way to go and I am feeling so much better ...
    Thinking of you .. Much Love Susie emoticon emoticon emoticon
    1803 days ago
  • DS9KIE
    woo hoo glad you have a place to call home...with a bed...yea emoticon emoticon

    good going with eating raw....keep it up emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon
    1803 days ago
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