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Saturday, May 11, 2013

I have not been able to get on to Sparkpeople and post since the about 3 weeks ago or maybe even longer. So I havestarted a new S.M.A.R.T goal and yes I finished the last one. The previous S.M.A.R.T goal was to lose 20lbs by April 20,2013 I lost 21lbs. Thanking God!
So now I have started a new S.M.A.R.T goal and it is to lose another 20lbs by June 20th but I also wanted to start getting strength training in and began and finish C25K and let me tell you its been a complete bust. I was on fire after losing that 20lbs and meeting this goal. I wanted to go right into the next one the first day of the goal was a bit off I had my weekly "splurge" day so that went as planned with shopping for new clothes. EEEEEEEEEEEEEP! but then time went on and the stress from nursing school had started getting to me like it has never before. I was completely depressed for 2 weeks, I mean non-stop crying, not wanting to move and my grades dropped. My grades dropping was the most devastating event. Nursing school I knew was going to be a hard road but damn it not this bad.
I caught myself comparing myself to other students academically,socially, financially, and any other way possible. This was biggest down fall. I don't think there was ever a time that I have wanted to not exisit. To not be noticed and not to speak or be around people.......So what brought me out his funk? Realizing that happiness is a choice that I will have to make everyday I wake up . Secondly I have stopped comparing myself to other people, it's not healthy or helpful. Doing what makes me happy is number one.
I am now back on track with working towards my June 20 goal. I am suppose to be 233lbs on June 20th I am going to work my butt off. I did make it through the trimester and now I am officially 3 months away from graduating and a few steps closer to becoming a nurse.
When I finish nursing school in August I think with new found happiness,strength, and courage I am going to try to start instructing different types of zumba and take my GRE so I can start my NP school in 2014........

I hope I am not dreaming too big! I want my weightloss process to be in maintence phase come January 2014....Goals are being set and they will be achieved. My goals not anyone else's
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    I am proud of you on so many levels. I never could have made it into nursing school, let alone gotten as far as you have. That's really something to be proud of, even though I know it is stressful for you. The pay-off will come.

    And congratulations on those 20 pounds - you can definitely get another 20 off this summer. You are doing well by allowing yourself the opportunity to splurge and taking it in little bits at a time. I've found that whenever I stray from "little goals at a time," I start to crumble.

    Good job. Seriously. You deserve it.
    1827 days ago
    You never dream to big!!! Without goals ahead of you --- how can you know what to aim for. I'm so excited that you were able to bring yourself out of the funk you were in. It's a blessing! Always remember you are wonderfully made in Gods image and He only made ONE of YOU! So there is no one like you nor are you like anyone else. Be yourself and be the best SELF that you can be. Congraulations on making it through the semester and on your way to completing nursing school. I have a daughter who is trying desperately to get in somewhere and we're holding fast that change will come.
    1833 days ago
  • SPARKLE1908
    You are going to hit all of your goals and then some!! Everyone runs into a brick wall at some point but your attitude is what will push through!!! Keep up the good work!!! emoticon
    1835 days ago
  • SUNSET09
    emoticon Girl, you are a child of the Most High God so no dream is to big for Him. You've had an AHA moment and now, you are ready to soar! You can and will do it as you are on your way! What's for you, is for YOU! emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon
    1835 days ago
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