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Better late than sorry

Friday, May 10, 2013

In my younger years I was very active, I player softball, danced salsa, went on daily runs and never had to mind what I ate.
When I was 19 I was pregnant with my precious boy, and ofcourse I gained weight, but not more than what you "should". Many people said that they could barely see that I was pregnant, the babybump was the only give-away. My husband worked and was not at home 5 days/week and not having a car, I still kept fairly active taking long walks.
After I gave birth I could fit into my "skinny" jeans and shortly after something happened.
I couldn't even put on my sweatpants let alone my skinny jeans. I gained more and more weight and for a long time I convinced myself that it was because I had just given birth.
I even started going to a gym when my son was 3 but I really hated it. There were mostly musclemen and pin-up girls. Really who puts on makeup to go to the gym?
And since I got no help from the so called trainers and them forcing me to weight myself (and I kept gaining) I quit.
Which means I gained more and more, til this month, 44 pounds of extra weight. That and being short really looks extra bad, with people now asking me which month I am in.
This questiom being very painful in 2 ways. One the weightpart but second since me and my husband are having issues producing one more child. Trying for 6 years, only one success but that ended in miscarriage.

So I had enough, avoiding mirrors, not buying clothes cause they all sit like crap, avoiding pictures and at times I think staring people, and for once, being able to run with my son without feeling like I am the big bad wolf, huffin and puffing and blowing a house down.

This time I will succeed, I will follow through and I will be healthy! For myself, so I can once again, feel like all woman.
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  • _JULEE_
    1810 days ago
    Persistence is the key,
    You can do it!
    Even though we have setbacks, the goal emoticon is to not give up.
    1810 days ago
  • AJB121299
    Good Luck
    1810 days ago
    I like your determined attitude! I feel the same way about gyms, and because I'm so overweight and self conscious I refuse to go to one. I always feel like everyone is looking at me and thinking awful things, because everyone at the gym is always in shape and looking good.

    So, instead of the gym I just go for walks around my neighborhood. No mirrors, and very little people, and the scenery is much more enjoyable!

    Good luck to you! With that positive attitude and determination, you will succeed! :)
    1810 days ago
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