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Friday, May 10, 2013

I went to the naturopath yesterday. Chatted about if she thought she could help me, and what my primary issues are. She says she is willing to help with coaching - how to work cooking and healthy eating into the crazy life of someone that is used to eating on the run. I should have asked if she would give me a meal plan complete with recipes and shopping lists that include the best store to go to for each item because I'm not a savvy shopper and if I don't find the item at the first store I go to, I give up. I HATE shopping. I have another appt on Tuesday, so we'll get more into that then. Of course what it always comes down to is that I'm sensitive to a lot of foods and unless I give those up... I'm not going to feel better and I'm not going to lose the weight. And I will have to give them up forever. So it is time to make the choice... once and for all... do I want to just live as I am and eat what I want? Or do I want to cook and eat foods I don't enjoy so that I can be healthy, energetic, happy and pain free? Seems like such a simple choice on paper. Just writing it brings tears to my eyes though. Why do foods stir up so many emotions?? It is JUST FOOD for crying out loud!! But the though of no more pizza... no more ice cream... no more cheese... no more candy... EVER... so emotional for me. I feel pathetic for being so attached to my favorite foods. The ones that are making every moment full of pain. I can't even walk right because of all the inflammation in my feet and my knees and I still want the instant gratification of my favorite foods. I can't sleep... my heart doesn't beat right and they are talking about burning a nerve in there to fix it when I know I just have to give up my favorite foods and it will go back to normal. It's happened before. Yet, I still have to think about it. It shouldn't be this hard. I should want to choose health and that should be enough. I hear so many people say that they had a health scare and that was all it took for them to clean up their eating. Why isn't it enough for me?
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    Take it one day at a time. emoticon
    1871 days ago
  • NUTMEG101
    I have no idea which choice i would make, if i were in your shoes. As you say, it "sounds" easy to choose health, but the reality is NOT that simple! a "one day at a time" approach might help. Wake up thinking - "just for today, i choose health" and sometimes it might be down to the minute - and "right now - i choose health". Don't worry about tomorrow, or next week. You can battle that when you get there. The only thing you have to do is NOW. the past is done, the future - isn't here yet. just now. big HUGS! I hope your naturopath can offer you support! And keep writing. it is amazing what comes out when we are typing that we don't expect.
    1871 days ago
    I'm sensitive to all dairy. If I eat ice cream, I will have pain in my guts like I do now. If I want to get rid of the pain, I have to quit eating it. It's a choice - either eat it and be miserable from the pain, or not eat it and be miserable because I'm not eating it. With pizza, the dairy makes my guts hurt, the tomatoes in the sauce make my joints hurt and the gluten in the crust makes my heart PVCs worse. I'm frustrated because these health issues should be enough to make it easy to stop eating these foods so I can feel good... but it isn't. I already eat them in moderation. I'm not losing. Only time I have ever lost weight is when I have given them up completely for more than a month. I eat them one time... one piece of pizza... and I'm in agony for 3 days and I gain 10 pounds. I'm not exaggerating. Sensitivities SUCK!!! And still... it's not enough for me to want to give them up. If I can't eat what I want, I would rather not eat. Then I'm back to my borderline anorexia.
    1871 days ago

    Comment edited on: 5/10/2013 4:15:11 PM
  • DEEO12
    Who said you have to give up ice cream? You can still eat these things just in moderation. It is what is moderation?

    Not sure if this will help you but i was told to lose weight to lower cholesterol. But then found out the it is the saturated fats that helped me in getting high cholesterol. I was surprised at how much saturated fat was in ice cream. This made is soooo easy in not wanting that treat very often.

    Check out easy recipes online. You will be surprised at the small changes you can make and turn out healthier. Take pizza for example. We now buy pita bread (the real thin ones) and make our own pizza. Wayyyyyy less calories and the kids love it because they can make them different each time we have them.

    Great job on seeing someone who can help you with nutrition! emoticon

    1871 days ago

    Comment edited on: 5/10/2013 2:30:50 PM
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