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Motivation? Where are you?

Friday, May 10, 2013

I lost my motivation and can't find it anywhere. I've looked and and looked but it' gone. I need someone to help me find it and quickly. I am really depressed about Jeff and my health situations and all I do is eat, eat, eat. Then I feel even more depressed. Jeff is having his second biopsy done on Monday and hopefully they will get a big enough sample this time to tell us defifinitively whether he has pancreatic cancer or just chronic pancreatitis. My hives went away while I was gone but now are worse than ever. I!ve scratched myself raw and still itch. My heart Dr. says I can't take the prednisone the blood Dr. has me on because its making my heart failure worse so I guess I'll have to take the 4 week course of chemo. But I'm not doing anything until I know for sure about Jeff. Meanwhile I eat. Help!. I don't want to regain all my lost weight again. Someone lock me in a closet! Marsha. 👼
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    Motivation likes to do that (hide from us). My advice would be to follow the suggestions Norrie gave. I know I plan to. emoticon

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    2686 days ago
    Wow Girl you have definitely got your plate full ..... do you like popsicles? when I get to where I feel like all I want to do is eat eat eat I I pull out a frozen popsicle and suck on that baby ... very satisfying and very few calories ... then I pull out the mini trampoline and jump a bit .... makes me too tired to eat any longer ... LOL ... you are doing so good ... I like the idea of writing in your journal .... spark provides one ... just write everything down and it sure might help .... we are all here for you and with you on this journey and through your trials and tribulations my friend ..... Roc
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    2687 days ago
    Marsha, I hear you. You write so well. I feel your pain. Do you like to journal? My suggestion is to write write write....let out your stress, your anger, your depression. ( no one is going to see it but yourself, so you can say anything you want.) It feels so good to get these feelings out of your head, down your arm, out your fingers,into your pen and finally onto the paper.
    Sit in nature with your beloved books, maybe by a babbling brook?
    (and no food ! emoticon )
    Do you like historical fiction murder mysteries? I can send you a list of my favs.
    Finally write a contract for yourself and sign it. Have it say "Just for to-day, I will ...etc. etc. And then try to honour your signature. It's only for one day.
    I am adding you as a friend. Take care. There IS a light at the end of this tunnel. You WILL overcome. Snugs 'n hugs, Norrie emoticon
    P.S. If you can manage it, get out for a walk. Makes a huge difference.
    2688 days ago

    Comment edited on: 5/10/2013 10:55:50 AM
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    Oh Honey! Stress is such an awful thing and it sounds like you are dealing with a lot of it!! As you know, eating isn't the answer, it only makes you feel worse. Is there anything you like to do to distract yourself? Read over your past blogs for encouragement also. Best Wishes to you! Praying for Jeff and you!
    2688 days ago
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