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My Blogging Disclaimer

Thursday, May 09, 2013

I just wanted to say thanks to everyone who reaches out and offers me support and encouragement on my blogs about my struggles. I really do love this community. I would not be halfway to my goal without the support I get here.

I've always been a writer. I've always kept diaries and had pen pals and written stories and memoirs. Writing is how I process and sort through my thoughts and emotions. Sometimes I debate about blogging whats going on in my head because I'm sure people get tired of my rants or just get the wrong idea based on what I write. It's hard to explain because I am completely honest in these blogs. And the reason why I continue to do it is because at the end of the day it's for me. For me to learn from and have record of. If someone else gets something out of it or has something to share with me, it's an added bonus.

Even though these rants are honest, they don't really give an accurate portrayal of who I am. It's just how I'm feeling in the moment. I'm kind of intense. I do everything with a lot of passion. I am really hard on myself. I get impatient and frustrated often because I've wanted this so badly for so long. These blogs are just me working through those emotions. I hope it doesn't seem like I'm a miserable person or like I hate myself because I'm not and I don't. I guess it's really hard to understand if you don't know me personally.

I'm going to keep blogging and being totally open in them because I don't know how else to be. And I'll probably keep seeming like a nut job. I mean, don't get me wrong, I am a nut job. But it's not as bad as it probably seems. I have a great life that I love. I have a lot of fun. I have people who love me in spite of the crazy. I don't sit at home smacking my head against the wall because I can't seem to stay on track for longer than 12 days (my new record!). If you knew the background I came from, you'd know what a miracle it is that I'm a normal (using term lightly), functional adult.

I get frustrated, I post a venty rant, and then I move on. Till the next time. I really appreciate everyone who comes along for the ride. Thanks for being there for me. I hope you know I'm here for all of you.
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    i admire your courage, i blog every single day but because it always waves my crazy a little too loud i erase almost all of my blogs instead of post them. one of these days i might find that strength.
    i think it would be helpful for me to be able to read back over some of the crazy to see where ive come from
    i do admire you
    1835 days ago
    In my opinion, blogging should reflect our true feelings. I commend you for doing just this.

    I really appreciate your honesty and the willingness to openly discuss this matter.
    1836 days ago
    I kind of think that is the purpose of spark. To be honest with ourselves so we can confront our inner demons and learn control over our mouthy desires for treats. I used to just post nice pictures, but then I started posting feelings which helps me to understand myself better allowing positive change to happen. emoticon

    Do it for you.
    1841 days ago

    Comment edited on: 5/10/2013 2:01:41 PM
    OK duly noted. Just so that you know that you really are doing great. Let's hear some celebrating for the accomplishments you have made.
    1841 days ago

    Comment edited on: 5/10/2013 10:19:32 AM
  • LMH1223
    Rant away!! That's one of the reason's we're here! I wish sometimes I would seize the moment of frustration, disappointment, happiness and write it down, but I never do! I need to make it more of a point to that, it helps in so many ways!!
    1841 days ago
    Rant away :) I enjoy your blogs and am always here for support, or just a good b**ch-fest :)
    1841 days ago
  • MELLY3183
    I love your blogs!! And I'd like to state that this is the only area where I am completely honest about life. Not that I fib on facebook but I feel like I can open up more on spark because everyone is maybe feeling the same thing. Blogging is great, and if it helps bring your ideas to the forefront then more power to you.
    1842 days ago
    You are an awesome lady.
    1842 days ago
    This journey to getting healthy, and working so hard to discover what's right for our individual bodies is enough to drive ANYONE nuts. emoticon
    But you are a breath of fresh air! Your honesty is endearing. Keep blogging it all out, and know that one day you'll look back and read these blogs, and really appreciate just how far you've come.
    1842 days ago

    Comment edited on: 5/9/2013 1:05:31 PM
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