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Ban on Self Bashing

Wednesday, May 08, 2013

I felt compelled to share a thought I had while I did a level two workout today and was struggling a little. Today was the first time I had done level two, feeling I can do level one pretty well and it was time to push a little.

It was a rough, long day at work, and I didn't even want to work out when I got home - but I did. About half way through the work out, I started in on myself with negative thoughts. It always goes through my head about how out of shape I am and what a blob I feel like when I can't do the plyometrics and have to modify almost all of the harder moves. It occurred to me that I do this frequently. I focus on how I'm not good enough or pretty enough or skinny enough - when is enough, well, enough?!


Why am I not proud of my accomplishments? Why can't I focus on the fact that six months ago - I wouldn't have worked out at all after a day like today. Six weeks ago, I was having difficulties with level one. Here I am - doing level two! Finishing level two!

I made a decision. I have a new personal goal to ban the self bashing in my head. The next time I think about how my belly fat jiggles while I am doing jumping jacks - I am going to tell myself how proud I am that I can - and am - DOING jumping jacks! When I think about a work out being hard - and won't this ever get easier? I will think about how it is hard because I have pushed myself to the next level. I have challenged myself and will get stronger.

I am banishing my negative self talk. I am going to change the voice in my head. I can do this!
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    Great job on doing the level 2. I find when I bump things a level and I start struggling again rather than bash myself I make a deal with myself. Keep at the new level for X number of minutes then see how you feel. Some days are just bad workouts and maybe an easier one would still get the job done. On a bad workout day I figure getting the workout done is the job. Just keep pushing it and soon level 2 will seem easy and you won't think much about it. Just remember when the bashing starts, lay out your accomplishments to yourself and eventually those affirmations will stick. I used to do the same thing. Release the negativity along with the weight. It will work.
    1807 days ago
  • KA_JUN
    Nix the stinkin' thinkin'! Your goals are worthwhile and you can achieve great things! emoticon
    1807 days ago
  • TIG123GER
    Good for you!!!! We all have those nasty voices in our heads that tell us we aren't good enough and too many times we listen to them instead of telling them to shut up and ship out. Keep up the good work, move on to bigger and better and harder things, and celebrate all the great successes you've accomplished because you are worth it and are good enough!!!!
    1807 days ago
    Awesome post! i think a lot of us have difficulty quieting that negative self talk....it takes constant awareness to stop the thoughts mid-process. I'm proud of you! emoticon
    1807 days ago
    Keep focused for success. You cn do it too. Go for it.
    1807 days ago
    Great goal!

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    1807 days ago
    I second the ban - great idea. emoticon
    1807 days ago
    YAY FOR YOU! Did I write this blog entry myself? I honestly could have. You've inspired me to create the same goal for myself. No self-bashing allowed!
    1807 days ago
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