Self Limiting Belief
Wednesday, May 08, 2013
I have been reading this book called Full-Filled by Renee Stephens and Samantha Rose and was working on the exercise on lmiting beliefs yesterday. Well I discovered my biggest limiting belief:
I believe that I am a disappointment and that being successful with losing weight will eventually lead to regaining the weight and to failure. I believe that success leads to failure because it can’t be maintained. As a result I sabotage myself and disappoint myself before I can disappoint others. The fear of disappointing others is greater than the feelings of disappointing myself. I suspect this comes from my childhood when I had to "walk on egg shells" to survive. To this day I would rather be furious at myself for regaining weight than to disappoint others. The problem is that at the same time I also feel that my regaining weight is also causing me to be a disappointment to others. I feel trapped in this no win situation. I am also am afraid whatever I achieve is never enough because I am never enough, never good enough and as a result I will always disappoint.
Last night after I had this "enlightenment" I shared my beliefs with my best friend, but she has a great self-image and couldn't understand my negative thoughts about myself. She said she admires my fortitude and courage. With my less than stellar self image just can't grasp why she thinks I am courageous. It is hard for me to internalize for sure.
While I have made improvements in my negative self-talk overall, they have crept back into to my thoughts too much lately. As they say " I am a work in progress."
Thanks for listening.