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Wednesday, May 08, 2013

this month so far has been perplexing - i don't want to repeat the usual frustrating, maddening, insane - etc.
again the MATH does not work with the calories in/out theory. over the last two weeks i have been under more back breaking stress imaginable. as a result - i have been thru another bladder infection, fibro flare up and digestive troubles. i also lost my appetite and because of meds i have a lousy taste in my mouth.
but i make sure to hydrate as best i can.
i have steadily gone up the five pounds it took me more than two months to lose!!!!
i hurt all over - aches, joint pains - the arm with the bp cuff is unbearable and unusable.
i drag myself through out the day - pushing myself and my body to move.
this is not quality of life - and i hate to say that cause i know there are so many people putting up with so much more.
there are tears, there are prayers - but at the end of the day it is only me.
the Serenity prayer is on my fridge and i say it often.
i am losing ground - tough - let's hope tomorrow is a better day!
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  • KERRY4614
    May you have less anxiety and worries while you meditate on the Serenity Prayer. emoticon
    1953 days ago
  • BELLAMEMAW
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    1962 days ago
  • RAINBOWFALLS
    emoticon I hope that things turn around for you. emoticon
    1962 days ago
  • FENWAYGIRL18
    I know exactly how you feel as I also have Fibromyalgia and Lyme disease and no one knows exactly what we go through unless they have it . You have no quality of life you can't plan things because you never know how your going to feel, how the weather will effect you and how people are going to deal with you in pain.
    My heart goes out to you , it really does! emoticon This winter was a nightmare to say the very least , I use a neck wrap around my neck, take motrin , put icy hot and my neck gets all blistered and raw. I take tylenol # 3 to try and take the edge off but it's like you want to jump the bridge and no one understands the amount of pain your dealing with as you try not to make it the main topic of the day and try to suck it up , but it's debilitating.
    You have every right to vent here there are some very supportive people here, sometimes I vent here so I don't have to vent at home, although I have a very supportive husband and son other members of my family don't believe in Fibromyalgia and so they've made my life a living hell!
    Stress makes fibro worse and I've had nothing but stress in my life for about the last 4 yrs!
    So when your in pain and you think no one cares, BELIEVE ME they do, I care I know exactly what your going through.
    I'll add you as a friend , your not alone! emoticon
    P.S. look at my photos I have a pomeranian that looks just like yours haha
    1962 days ago

    Comment edited on: 5/8/2013 9:46:50 PM
  • no profile photo LATTELEE
    good luck
    1962 days ago

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