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Wednesday, May 08, 2013

It's been three years since I signed up for SparkPeople. Words cannot express how saddened I am by the number I see on the scale. I'm not sure what happened to be honest. I was the same weight since high school for as long as I can remember. Then I joined SparkPeople and lost some weight (about 25 lbs) and in the meantime, poof I gained it back plus an extra 50 lbs. I am now at the heaviest I've ever been in my life. Since the weight gain, I've had people ask me why I was breathing so hard. My fiance says I snore. I get winded walking. Sure, before I was overweight but I still got around okay and breathed normally. Now I am so self conscious. Does my fiance think I'm sleeping when I'm sitting there watching TV? Can that girl walking in front of me at school hear me breathing like a dragon? Why do I wake up and smell like sweat now - was I hot? I feel utterly disgusted with myself. If I could get down to my previous weight, I'd be content. I'm not asking for miracles - just the ability to enjoy life without always worrying about what other people think. If I could surpass that goal and be absolutely healthy - even better. I'm trying to look at in terms of baby steps. First, lets get back down to where I was. Then take it from there! This summer my goal is to lose 57 lbs...starting today!! Wish me luck. xoxo
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    Girl, the fact that you aren't just giving in says a lot! That determination WILL help you reach your goals. I do have one warning though: losing 57 pounds in one summer is quite ambitious. You would have to implement some pretty extreme changes in your lifestyle to hit that goal, and extreme changes are typically very difficult to sustain in the long run. If you spread your goal out to 6 months to a year, you will lose at a healthy rate that will help you keep the weight off for good!!! Best of luck to you! :-)
    1799 days ago
    Thank you so much for the support! I really appreciate it :) Of course we can be buddies - I can sure use the motivation lol.
    1809 days ago
    Losing weight is hard and it blows. But I am learning that I had to be the one to decide to do something about it...nothing else in the world was going to make it better. If you would like to be friends on here to help motivate each other, that would be great! :) Keep your chin up and don't give up.
    1810 days ago
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