Happy with myself the way I am
Monday, May 06, 2013
So I do not weight 150... I weigh more like 178. I am happy with the way I am. I have been eating healthy and working out most days. I have a guy who is interested in me and likes me just the way I am. I appreciate my body and how it holds up for me.
I told myself I was ready "to become" healthy, but really I was ready to become thin. I don't know if that is in the cards for me. I don't care. I have perfect blood pressure and eat good nutritious food. I have people who care about me.
I will never be the idealistic version of myself who is always happy. I probably will always have insecurities due to growing up in an abusive home. I can only be happy as I can be and give myself all the love I deserve, 180 pounds or 200 pounds of 150 pounds. All of it, is me.