The good and the bad
Sunday, May 05, 2013
Last month I posted a bunch of goals. I'm happy to report that I'm doing pretty good with them so far. My list was:
Eight glasses of water a day
Try and be more active in general
Workout at least three times a week
Eat more fruits, vegetables and lean meats
Eat less processed food
Only have one cheat day a week
Plan meals in advance
Have snacks on hand so I make better choices
I need to work on eating less processed food but otherwise it has been going good. I also need to work on working out more. I've done better but there is always room for improvement.
In other good news I have officially lost the weight I gained since last month. I am one pound away from officially having lost 20 pounds. I honestly think I have already lost 20 pounds but the problem is I don't know what my official weight was when I was at my heaviest. Two years ago I had surgery and know what my weight was at that point. Since then though I've avoided any scales like the plague so I have no idea how bad it really got. I've seen pictures of me at my worst and hated it. Maybe its better that I don't know how bad it really got.
Alright, time for the bad. This past week and weekend I have felt so out of it I can't even really put it into words. I feel off. Work is boring, this weekend was boring and I did nothing. Even my eating was off. I ate pretty healthy but it just didn't feel right. I don't know what my problem is.
I think it may be related boy problems. I recently starting seeing this guy although I don't even know if you can call it that. My own insecurities keep coming out although I'm trying not to show it. I was never very good at the whole dating scene or boys. I'm trying not to think the worst but I often find myself doing just that. I know I'm my own worst enemy but I'm trying to learn to think better. I think it's affecting my everyday attitude though. So much so my coworkers and friends have started to pick up on it.
I'm trying my hardest to learn to accept myself for who I am with all of my faults. I can only try my hardest and make each day better than the last.
Wish me luck!