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Insight into me and where I came from and where I am now...

Saturday, May 04, 2013

I can go on and on about what I don't do and what I do do in terms of how I am working towards losing weight. When I had my first 2 kids I was able to lose the weight quickly because it was all mainly baby weight from the pregnancy but when I got pregnant with my 3rd son/child I was on bed rest from heart complications and pregnancy complications and I gained a lot of weight. After I had him I do believe I went into a postpartum depression because he cried every time we picked him up and I breast fed him and I felt like I was doing something wrong with him (later we found out he has Autism and Epilepsy).. I went back to work before I was medically ready to because I just didn't want to be at home any longer (yes I know that sounds bad but I can't help how I felt than). I worked in a fast food restaurant and when I would eat thats all there was and when I went home I would bring that food home because I was too tired to cook and so on and so forth the years and the poinds just added up than I got pregnant again and still hadn't lost the weight from my son.

Now its been nearly 8 years since I had my last baby and about 7 years since I got my tubes tied so I really don't have any excuses for why I weigh more now than when I had them except I have put all my focus on taking care of my kids and my home and working (before I am not working now) that I never put any focus on myself. In the last 5 years I went into a major depression and wound up staying in a bed nearly 3 years and when I got out of that depression I got a job and went out with friends occasionally and took care of myself along with my kids and I started losing weight. In 1 year I had lost 70 lbs but in the last year since I have not been working or able to go out sometimes and am just with the kids 24/7 I am putting that weight back on. I don't eat unhealthy I don't sit on my butt all day so I am just unsure what and where I am going wrong on losing this weight.

I want to lose this weight for my health, I have asthma and a bad heart and am at risk of high blood pressure and diabetes. I want to see my kids grow up and I want to see their kids and I want to be more active with them. I hope this site can help me. I really don't have a support system around me so this may be all that I ever get in terms of support and someone to talk to. emoticon

Sorry for the book but my aunt made me do it lol ;) love you Ron Ron...
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    1811 days ago
  • TURNERK1998
    I wish you all the best! It's very brave to come on here and write personal things about yourself. I bet there are so many people with very similar stories. I'm starting to take my health more seriously because of a family history of diabetes and high blood pressure. I plan to be around to see my kids grow up and watch them have families of their own. Good luck!
    1811 days ago
  • ROSE9231
    I love you too and its not a book but it did need to be written.. this site will help and everyone on here is very supportive. you have to be honest on this site no matter how hard that may be.. something that is hard on me with my food tracking lol but im doing it and when I look at my daily feed back I see where I messed up again and again but I keep at it cause I want to be healthy for myself and be around long enough to see my grand kids when they start arriving.. emoticon emoticon im here for you and so are thousands of others on this site
    1811 days ago
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