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Insanity! And not the workout...

Friday, May 03, 2013

Weight loss will drive you insane! No really. I am THIS [] close to losing it (my mind, not the weight). I strive so hard to do everything correctly I realize that setting myself up for failure is really what is happening. I count every little calorie that tends to make its way down my throat and into my over-sized belly. I AVOID social situations that I know will involve all of the foods that I love stuffing into my face-hole! I workout, I stress, I eat a little bit of something, I freak out that I ate it, I panic, I EAT MORE!

So this is obviously insane behavior and I should be locked up, put away, strapped down, medicated, sedated...something! My husband even tells me that I worry about it too much. But if I don't worry about it, I eat the bad things, then I worry about it more, and it is all a vicious cycle. So how do I fix this? How do I say "don't worry, be happy" when all I do is worry.

I took my husband's advice and stopped worrying for a couple weeks now. In that time I have probably eaten my weight in chocolates and snacks. Oh yes, I have been eating my fruit and eggs and vegetables and lean proteins...and CHOCOLATES and snacks. This is easygoing, free-loving me, not worrying about the 3-5 pounds I have gained AFTER I stopped worrying about doing my workout and worrying about the food I stuff in my face... (see the pattern here?)

Ok. I am going to take a very zen approach to this and say... I've made some mistakes this past week (or three). I haven't worked out like I should, and I have been eating the things that make me happy/unhappy. I can turn this around now, because I have control over what gets a free pass to Tummytown. I will make the choices that make me feel happy, and proud, and accomplished. I will lose those three pounds and continue to work towards my goal. I can do this. I can say no.

Now, alls I have to do is believe those words my happy little fingers just typed. I. Can. Do. This.

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    Maybe you can try something - my partner likes to have sweets around but I have her keep them in a locked file drawer - that way it is out of sight and out of mind. Maybe he can do that? I know it seems redik to have to resort to a locked drawer but hey, whatever it takes - right?
    Good luck - you can do this.
    Missourians! Team
    1870 days ago
    XANGELSTEARZX, I was able to do that for a while, but as my husband started to work two jobs full time, he began bringing things home for himself. And as a sweet caring, sharing husband, he would offer to share. Then I would find myself waking up in the middle of the night and sneaking his snacks! It's sad and ridiculous. That is definitely a help for me, but sometimes it is hard when my man has a sweet tooth and brings things home! I don't want to deny him of his comforts.
    1871 days ago
    Not sure if it's doable for your household but, when I tried to break my junk food "addiction" I quit keeping any in the house because I did not have enough willpower to not eat it.

    Also, the SparkPeople Tame Your Sweet Tooth Challenge is a huge help!
    1871 days ago
    Keep focused for success. You can do it. Go for it.
    1872 days ago
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