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Thursday, May 02, 2013

I don't know what to do anymore my depression is getting worse as the day go by. I feel like no will listen to me. How do I get the help that I need? I just want all of this to end. I don't want to feel like this anymore. I know I keep saying that but it is true. I am emotionally drained and I don't know how much more I can take. I can't deal with thease deep feelings of self hatred as well as sadness. I am so close to just giving up and not caring anymore.
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  • ARCHIMEDESII
    Tanya, you are not alone !!

    I know things must feel really overwhelming right now, but there are people who do love you and care for you !! Your doctor is there to help. If you haven't talked to your doctor in a long time, it's time to get a full check up. Don't be afraid to ask for help. Find out if there is a support group near you that you can attend. While you might not feel your therapist listens to you, maybe talking to other people will help you feel a bit better.

    And keep blogging, don't stop. Keep writing out your feelings because writing can help us feel better. Don't take your frustrations out on yourself. Put your frustrations to paper ! it's a way to help you start feeling better about yourself.


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    1876 days ago
  • IKACEY
    This is a hellish nightmare you are trapped in! emoticon You need some real help from a professional that has your interests at heart. And here you are stuck with a professional who is obviously at best not a good match for you and at worst on the unethical side. Can you talk to your doctor about the meds not working? Or if you have to not have a psychiatrist to get on the list for another psychiatrist can you just stop with this doctor? If your present psychiatrist is in charge of the hospital you would normally go to, can you go to another hospital for help where someone else is in charge? If not you still need to go to the hospital, and I pray that, as someone commented earlier, that this is a wake up call for your Psychiatrist, to make him finally realize that the meds are not helping you. If he is at a hospital he should have a supervisor you can go to and plead your case. There just has to be a way to fix this situation you are in, because you are just too fine a person to lose! emoticon
    IKacey co-leader of the Chair Exercise Team
    1876 days ago
  • WORKOUTWITHPAM
    Hi Tanya,

    I believe it is time for you to go to the Emergency Room, and let them know how you are feeling. That sounds like the best option for now. I am keeping you in my thoughts and prayers. Take care of yourself, and remember...WE DO CARE ABOUT YOU HERE!

    HUGS
    Pam
    1876 days ago
  • SUNSHINEGIRL311
    Thank you for your support everyone
    1877 days ago
  • SUNSHINEGIRL311
    CIRANDELLA yes you are right I have a psychiatrist and a counsellor.
    1877 days ago
  • COOKIE_AT_51
    I agree with all the others ... Go now, emoticon Let us know what they say.

    Cookie
    1877 days ago
  • BARBARAARICE
    Wow!! You need some genuine support! I would already be at the emergency room!
    1877 days ago
  • CIRANDELLA
    I'm so sorry I'm late in reading your comment among the comments written for yesterday's blog entry, Tanya... No, I didn't realize you were so limited in the choices you could make - that does make it very difficult, and I'm very sorry... So, do I understand correctly that your regular doctor doesn't want to treat you for depression, that the psychiatrist is really your only option, and you also have a counselor? Or is the psychiatrist your counselor? I'm sorry I was confused there...

    I can see where so much of the pain you're feeling stems from that feeling that with so few options, you're despairing of ever getting the help you need. What makes this so difficult is that you really do have to keep appealing to these two - or three? - professionals to address your depression. Who among them has the greatest potential of being the most open to hearing your current plight in all its depth - in really hearing you out? It sounds like you need to set up an extended appointment and let them know you're having such a rough time just mustering the will to live at this point...and that is so important. They need to know of the level of risk THEY are running by giving you inadequate care.

    I'm so concerned about you, Tanya...as you can see by our collective concern, you are VERY dear to us - we don't want to lose you. The thing about ending your life is that as long as you are alive, there is a chance this will all be behind you someday as you emerge a stronger, happier person. If you end your life, there will be not the slightest chance of that. Please know that we're with you in this...we want to see you survive AND thrive! All the best, Susan
    1877 days ago
  • SUMTHINGSPECIAL
    I know some people suggested you go to the hospital in your last post. I know you said that the man who is your counselor is in charge there. However . . .

    If you truly feel the way you do - you should go.

    Also, if he is in charge there - it doesn't matter. Perhaps this is what is needed for him to finally take you seriously.

    I wouldn't leave it in someone else's hands - if you can do something - do it.

    You DESERVE to feel better than this.

    Sumay
    1877 days ago
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