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It's a new month...

Thursday, May 02, 2013

A new month means it's time to stop slacking and get things right. I'm determined to pick myself up and fight for this healthy lifestyle that I have been working so hard on. Exercise is not a problem at all, unless I'm exercising too much. Sometimes I think I might be but I try to back off if my body tells me to rest. My weekly exercise routine is usually, step aerobics 1-2x a week, bodycombat 2x, bodypump 2x, CX works 2-3x, running at least 10-15 miles, and having one easy workout day where I usually do a fun workout on my Wii. Yes, I do exercise everyday. Most days I usually get about 90 minutes of gym time and then I use my fitbit to keep me active the rest of the day. My goal is 15000 steps daily and I always aim for more. I love working out and staying active all day. I had a couple months where I was lacking energy and struggling through workouts. I have finally gotten past that. I'm not sure what was wrong but I feel much better.

My biggest problem is nutrition! I'm eating the right stuff. I'm drinking tons of water. I'm getting enough protein and fiber. I love to cook and to bake and I'm always finding healthier ways to do so. My lifestyle change made me actually enjoy cooking. I have always enjoyed baking, but cooking was a struggle. Now all I do is go to SparkRecipes.com and browse all the delicious stuff shared by members. I'm starting to get a really good recipe collection going. So, what am I struggling with? Sometimes I think that I can eat a little extra of this or that because I ran 6 miles that morning. Weekends are really tough. I have designated Sunday as a cheat day, but I keep catching myself cheating on Saturdays. I even have days during the week where I think I can sneak in an extra 100 calories and my body wont notice. The verdict is in on what this is doing to me. When I cheat on my tracker...I'm only cheating myself. I'm not hurting anybody else but me. I must resolve to be more true and faithful to myself and stop sneaking in these extra calories and trying to justify it. I don't have any excuses and I'm making myself unhappy. I'm unhappy when I see a lack of progress. Yes I'm at a healthy weight and I am in great health but I'm out of my maintenance range by about 4 pounds and have not been able to get back there over the past few months. It is discouraging to see a lack of progress. I'm actually terrified of the scale because all I get out of it is bad news. I haven't even weighed myself in a couple weeks because I'm scared.

Things have been discouraging for me lately. I'm going through a rough time because DH and I wanted to have one more baby, but we have been trying since last July. I found out that there is a problem with my hormone levels and I'm working with my midwife about this. I was able to get pregnant with my other two children within 6 months and that was when I was 30 pounds overweight. Now that I'm at a healthy weight, I can't get pregnant. I think it has made it harder to focus on my fitness goals, but sometimes if I focus on those I can push the want for another baby into the back of my mind.

Goals for May:
-Keep up my daily physical activity, but listen to my body if I need to rest.
-Stop cheating myself with my nutrition.
-Keep taking care of myself and not stressing about TTC. It will happen if it's meant to happen and there isn't much more I can do right now.
-Sign up for another race, probably a 10K.
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  • SHELBEL101
    You look terrific and are really fit. I think you should calm down and enjoy the new you. Keep working out and eating healthy and in your maintenance calorie range. Maybe the stress and worryabout your weight etc is stopping you or maybe you are running too much. You just sound a bit stressed to me.

    Overall relax!! emoticon
    1869 days ago
    You can do it!!
    1876 days ago
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