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The Good, The Bad & Wolverine

Wednesday, May 01, 2013

So let's start with the bad. First if all, I stepped on the scale today and although I shouldn't be surprised, I found that I have gained back all the weight I lost plus more! Okay so not a pretty sight on the scale this morning. I did take my measurements and pics for this month. I needed to make the fresh start and although I said that I was going to do that a while back, I didn't really take things seriously.

I keep thinking about some comments that I had gotten from someone about how they were waiting for me to truly commit. I will admit that at first those comments made me mad but then I realized that they were right. I wasn't committed at all. In fact, I was checked out. I was going through some if the motions but I wasn't really putting my heart into it. That is exactly why I am seeing the numbers that I am seeing right now. I have no one to blame but myself.

When I looked into the mirror before I took my measurements, I was very disturbed by what or should I say who I saw. The person looking back at me looked old and run down. That person looked so sad and very fat! I didn't and don't want to see her any more!

The good, yes there is some, I have set my goals for May! I haven't jumped out there to try to lose 50 pounds in a month! I have a goal to lose 10 pounds in May. It is totally doable for me and I am determined to reach that goal! I also have a goal of 10 minutes of exercise and 10 glasses of water daily. These are also doable.

I feel like I have my plan and I will working to focus on each part one day at a time. Having a plan laid out feels so good. Okay I know that I have had plans in the past but I have written this down and posted it on my motivation wall. I see it throughout the day. I am also going to post them on the fridge as a reminder to what the goal plan is.

Now about Wolverine. I got back from Oregon and then a couple days later, I woke up with scratches on my thigh like Wolverine was trying to make a snack of my leg! That is probably the whole reason I have snapped out of my stupor and put it in gear! Lol. When Wolverine comes to visit, it is time to get off your butt and get to work!

On May 8th I will be celebrating my 1 year Sparkversary and although the first year didn't pan out the way I thought, I am glad I am here. I did a journal entry the other day looking back over the past year. I accomplished many things. I focused on all the positive things that I did and left the negative in the past. I was so surprised at all the things I did accomplish. Those are the things that I am hanging on to. I can say that one of the big things that I have accomplished and that I am very proud of is the fact that I am still here. I still stuck around no matter what was happening good or bad. I might not have been as visible to everyone but I was here. I plan to stick around for a long time so get used to seeing me around! Lol

So I have lots of work to do and a long road to travel but I have broken it down into short "trips"and I am plotting the journey on my "map". I am looking forward to my 2nd year with SP and what I will accomplish this time.

It is a new month and a great time to get back on track. If you have been struggling, jump in along with me and keep Wolverine away! Lol

More later! Much love!!!
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  • MZLADY77
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    1808 days ago
    I believe in you. You can do this. losing ten pounds this month sounds like perfect number you can do it.
    1812 days ago
    I'm proud of you!! We are all in this together, and you can count on us if you need encouragement. I regained everything as well and had to start over; now I've hit a plateau, and it's discouraging - but we have to keep plugging!!!
    We can do this! emoticon
    1813 days ago
  • JUDY106
    So, glad you are working your plan and sharing it with us here. I love to read your thoughts that you put into your blogs. I know you will be able to do this. You are right we need to commit before anything is going to get done and show improvement in our health and body.
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    1813 days ago
    I'm so glad you're hanging in there. SP wouldn't be the same without you. I'll be away for a while. Our router broke. But I'm doing well and I'll see you when I get back and occasionally in between. I love this blog. You and I are in almost the same place. My one year is right after yours. Like you, I know SP has helped me. I am really happy with some friends I have made and will miss them while I'm away. But...I'll be BACK!
    Love ya, Mom
    1813 days ago
    The good news is that you didn't quit. You know what you want to do, you've made a plan. Don't look so far down the road that you lose sight of your short term goals. Focus on the here and now. Week 1, Week 2, Week 3, Week 4 and before you know it, 1 whole month will be done! You can do this!
    1814 days ago
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    1814 days ago
    So good to see you back and this time with a good plan. 10# in the month of May,
    I'm going to go right with you and commit also. Here's wishing both of us good luck because we can do this and we are going to do this!! (hugs) Noel
    1814 days ago
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    1814 days ago
    You can get started again. Just do it. I'm pulling for you.
    1814 days ago
  • JCV501
    I said that to you....I can't wait till you really commit.....You are very gifted with are good at planning.....but nothing changes till it changes. Every minute of every day will require different choices from you. No more excuses.
    1815 days ago
  • KPACE7
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    1815 days ago
    Susan, I am glad to read this blog and see your very achievable goals.
    1815 days ago
    Thank you for sharing. Also for your honesty. I've always considered you a strong determined person. You can do it. Keep pushing forward, yopur goals seems very realistic and do able. Stay Strong and focused
    1815 days ago
    Isn't it amazing how those comments can sting at first, but sometimes they can give us just the push we need? That is why you are an amazing friend to me, because you don't coddle me and you call me out on my BS when I need it. For me those comments can't come from anyone, only certain people are privileged enough to call me out on my BS, and you are one of the people on that short list. ;)

    I am sorry about the scale, but it sounds like you are ready to start fresh, taking pictures, measurements, goals, that sounds like a woman who is ready. The part that stood out to me most is saying that the girl in the mirror looks sad... I love you overweight, I'll love you skinny, that isn't as important to me as the person you are, but I want you to be HAPPY and FEELING GOOD and that is why I'm excited to see you moving forward. emoticon emoticon
    1815 days ago
    I'm with you! I haven't actually gained back, but have been stuck in the same place since January, for no other reason that I just am not working my plan. I keep kidding myself that this... or that... won't hurt... (like, say, 4 big pieces of pizza instead of 1).

    So, here's to -10 in May !

    1815 days ago
  • POPSY190
    Good, achievable goal to commit to. Good luck with it!
    1815 days ago
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    God bless,

    1815 days ago
    Thank you for being real! I think you hit the nail on the head with setting small goals. At least I find that's what's working for me this time. And never, ever give up, because you're worth it! emoticon
    1815 days ago
    You got the plan so you're set to go! emoticon
    1815 days ago
    So many people have been there and done that. I'm thankful I didn't out mine all back on but I am disapointed that I haven't hit my goal yet. I hit my 1 yr anniversary on spark in june so I'm bustin butt to have a great overall one year loss. Can't believe its been that long already...crazy uh? So yeah....u know what ya gotta do and I know u can do it!!
    1815 days ago
  • LINDAK25
    1815 days ago
    Love your blog!! I am so glad you can pick out the positive in your last year and use that as a stepping stone to going forward. It's a tough journey we're on and sometimes it seems like one step forward and two back, but then it changes and you get two steps forward and only one back. It's a slow learning process. I know you can do it because you have the right attitude and the will to succeed. I have just been maintaining for the last couple months and need to push forward again. I did accomplish a 35 lb weight loss in a year and a half and that was just so necessary and wonderful for me. My health is so much better. It is amazing how much better I look and feel. I send you all my good wishes for your success. Just do it!!! Lots of hugs!!!! Lots of positive vibes streaking your way!!!!! emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon
    1815 days ago
    I fell off my plan too and gained more weight than I started with but I'm not going to give up this time and I'm glad you aren't either. If we aren't trying, no matter the outcome, then we might as well be dead. Good luck on your goals for the next year, I'm rooting for you! emoticon emoticon
    1815 days ago
    You can do this! Way to recommit.
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