Now, that's not breaking any speed records, but I am not in a race.
I have never eaten better or enjoyed the journey more than I am now.
I have quit dieting. Food is neither my enemy nor my best friend. I am finally doing that which I always wanted to do, knew to do, but was beyond my ability to do. /And I am doing it one day at a time.
I apologize for not posting much to any of my groups over the last few weeks. There's been a lot of stressful events--Boston bombings, a bomb scare and shootings at the end of my block, partner out of town and then coming home with strep, now I'm sick and fighting a cold, trying to keep it out of my lungs because I get pneumonia so easily, and several other stressful events. BUT, through it all, I have remained calm and in the serenity zone. I take it one day at a time, and I only worry about the parts I can actually do something about, which usually isn't much. Otherwise, I roll with the flow.
I can hardly believe that one month ago, on April 3rd, I was blogging about baggy pants. Well, guess what? The smaller jeans I bought just 4 weeks ago are already too baggy! And I haven't even lost all that much weight! Seriously, 20 pounds is but a tiny drop in a very large bucket.
But somehow, this time, my weight isn't dropping quickly but my size is shifting dramatically. 9.5 inches across 5 measuring points in 2 months is quite a lot of shifting. At least it is for me.
Two summers ago, last time I dropped 35 pounds (and then regained it over two years), I had to have lost 30 lbs before squeezing into the jeans I am wearing today quite comfortably, and I've only lost 20 lbs so far. So, definitely lots of shifting going on.
I've made a LOT of realizations. And that's what I really want to share. But this is long enough, so I'll try to be better about posting more thoughtful, meditation nuggets over the next few days.
I'm grateful for Spark, I'm grateful for this journey, I'm grateful to be feeling better, and I am grateful for my Spark friends. I apologize for not being much of a spark friend in return recently, but I aim to improve that this week!
Sparks of love to all!