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Tuesday, April 30, 2013

I have spent a lot of time thinking, reading, researching....

I am quite angry at myself. I had my "come to Jesus" moment when I read The New Rules of Lifting for Women book and it touted the EAT MORE mentality. It is a hard concept for me to grasp when I have spent a lot of time restricting, turning to intuitive eating only to feel guilty for eating and then to return to restrictive eating.

The pattern disturbs me then disgusts me. I.Have.Had.It.

I found a VERY interesting blog online: gokaleo.com/2012/08/21/p
that totally supports the EAT MORE FOOD mentality. She has a book called "Taking Up Space" www.amazon.com/Taking-Up
that I also bought. The calculators in the blog state that I am not eating near what I should be to support my TEE (total energy expenditure). According to the calculator I should be eating upwards around 2500 calories a day.


Yeah, shocking. However, I find it quite interesting, that when I just allow my hunger to guide me, I am eating pretty much that. I have been tracking what I eat all day in my Fitbook and then plug what I eat in the nutrition tracker. Most of the time I am spot on with what I should be. Interesting.

She backs up her philosophy with a lot of scienc-y information. How eating 1500 calories a day is only messing up the metabolism. ::slaps hand to forehead:: no freaking wonder I have spent so much time hungry! Oy!

It is a hard paradigm to shift to. A completely different mindset to switch to when we're conditioned by the Industry that eating is bad and calories are bad and hunger is bad. Why? I hate being hungry. It throws everything off for me. I am grumpy, I get irritable, I am snappy. I hate the feeling of being hungry. I am eating the food. I have been down the path of disordered eating. Bad body image. I am working very hard to repair it. It is a daily struggle. It is so easy to point to everything that I dislike about myself and hard to find the things I like. I think back to the only times I didn't hate my body: when I was pregnant. I loved being pregnant. I felt so alive, I was amazed of what my body could do. I loved feeling life. I want to get back to that place of being able to appreciate myself and my body. Not hating it. It is such a horrible chain reaction for me. I weigh, I get upset, I hate myself, I get frustrated.

I have given up the scale. I haven't been on it. The only thing I see the scale good for is my relationship with gravity. I am finding as I delve deeper into my lifting program it is totally false. Last time I checked, I have gained over three pounds, however that being said, I am dropping inches. I am to the point that I really don't care what it says. It is a number and it does not define me as a person as long as I don't let it.
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    Amber: I am going to order a Fitbook for Mother's Day and treat myself. I play a head-game with myself when I log my food on Spark. I log breakfast and lunch and then usually see how many calories I have left to reach just under 1000. If I go over, even a little, by the end of the day I get depressed. I tell myself I will eat more, but then I don't really let myself. Especially if I am logging food along the way and can see how the calories add up. It would be cool to just make note of what I eat throughout the day and then log it at the end of the day and see how it adds up. Anyway, I think you are doing the right thing. I started lifting 7 months ago and started gaining weight. I haven't stopped lifting but I am getting so depressed. I lost inches at first but now I am gaining inches again. Not sure what to make of it. If I could just nail down the nutrition I think I'd see some fat loss. But that's the great mystery. How many calories will it take to keep the metabolism stoked and muscles growing and yet let the body use fat for energy. I haven't figured it out yet. I hope you do. Sounds like you are. If you are losing inches then you are doing it right. Throw out the scale. I may do the same. As always, thanks for the info.
    1847 days ago
  • JOYB19
    I am very interested in weight lifting more regularly. I play around with it...start..stop..restart... Used to be very regular with it maybe 15 years ago. I do feel really good during my "on" months.

    I'm keeping my calories low - 1200-1300 - to bust a plateau. It works pretty well, but then I don't feel like doing more exercise. I am afraid that if I start eating more, my metabolism will not follow right away, and the pounds come back to visit. Still figuring out how to fuel the machine, I guess!

    Hope the "Eat More" stuff works for you! Thanks for the links!!
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    From what I have seen, if you are doing consistent heavy lifting, you need to ignore the scale. It does not tell the story of body composition. If you tend to be muscular and gradually increase your muscularity, you will look much, much better (and most likely feel much, much better) and weigh surprisingly more than others your size. Yes, the tape measure and visual observation is what is important. Food fuels your work-outs and muscle growth, etc. You need to eat enough nutritious food, and hunger is the guide for knowing whether or not you need to eat (unless you have some kind of emotional/binge eating disorder).

    There is quite a variety of people on Spark....different body types, different choices, different thought processes. You have made a choice for a lifestyle and body style for which the scale is surely not a valuable guide.

    My daughter's fitness (Crossfit) & eating (modified Paleo) program is more like yours. She has dropped sizes and many at work and gym are commenting about the change in her body.
    I asked her (for the sake of research) if she weighs herself and if so, has she lost/gained any weight. They don't go by body weight, said maybe a couple pounds total lost...not sure. It is a fitness program and having a great body is a by-product. Saw a picture of my daughter on their website and asked how much she was lifting (some kind of dead-lift?). She said 140 lbs. I was impressed! Then she mentioned that she did it more than once.

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    Comment edited on: 5/1/2013 8:26:44 PM
    Eat the food!!!!!!!! emoticon Interesting info for sure, I really need to start focusing more on lifting, but I have a lot of weight to lose.
    1847 days ago
    emoticon I am not sure what to think of those calculators...they are WAY higher than I would think!
    1848 days ago
    As I said on the boards, I will definitely read this when school is finished (two more weeks!) Now, I am NOT lifting in that way, so it may not speak to me. I AM finding, though, that I'm losing eating the higher end of my calorie range, and I AM exercising every day. I'm also not hungry. And when I'm hungry, I eat.
    1848 days ago
  • JUSTME29
    I think we all may say we want to be a certain weight, but what we really picture is a certain size. If you program is helping you achieve that, then the scale be dmned.
    1848 days ago
    Thank you for the link!
    1848 days ago
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