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Upset--bit of a rant.

Tuesday, April 30, 2013

This is a rant...and a bit of a pity party. But the bottom line is I really just need to get this out:
Well...the last entry where I'd lost 8 lbs was a fluke, I guess. I gained it right back the next week--eating the same things and exercising the same if not more.
...And now for about a month, maybe more--no progress yet again.
And I've really been trying. I have had a couple of days where I just get sick of it and give up. But the next day I feel bad and go right back to it.
I don't understand and It's really starting to depress me. I can't wear any of my clothes...I hate looking in the mirror. I can't tell you how many times I've broke down in tears about all this in the last month. I don't want my picture taken. I don't want my husband to have to come back and see me like this.
And the most frustrating thing is I'm actually TRYING. I don't know how to try any harder. I literally eat fruit, vegetables, meat and a little dairy most of the week. A sandwich MAYBE twice a week and only at breakfast. 30 minutes at least of cardio 3 times or more a week and I'm pushing myself. I've also gone so far as to get off my depression medication (with dr. supervision) because he suggested that's what's keeping my weight at this terrible plateau.

I don't know what to do. This is the worst time I've ever had with my weight. I've never NOT lost weight when I've actually tried....I'm at a complete loss and not only concerned but angry and sad. I feel like I've tried everything, literally everything minus starving myself which...i know isn't right.

This sucks. More than I can even put into words.
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    I tried to lose weight for over 7 years, Sparkpeople was the first time I lost some of kept it off. 3-4 months ago I stopped losing and the needle went back and forth for 2 months then for no reason I started losing again. Losing weight takes longer to lose then to gain and it harder. Hang in there and have faith. Most importantly remember there will be setbacks, but these are opportunities to become stronger and wiser. Good luck on creating a new journey to losing weight- You are not alone.
    1652 days ago
    thanks, you two. I definitely have noticed that I'm stronger/can run longer distances, etc. Clothes still aren't fitting differently :-/ guess that's where I really want to see the improvement.

    Maybe I do need to keep a better eye on the sodium. That's been one of the hardest things for me to regulate, it seems. Even though I don't eat much salt it's just in so many foods.
    1845 days ago
    Are you drinking enough water? Are you keeping an eye on your sodium? Water retention due to sodium can definitly stall your weightloss.

    Don't give up! Make sure you are tracking what you are eating, keep doing your exercise. Sometimes it just takes a little while for your body to get the clues.
    1846 days ago
    Even without progress, how do you FEEL? Are you stronger? Are you sleeping better? Are stairs easier to climb? Do your clothes fit differently? has anyone noticed that you look well?

    Even when the scale doesn't move in the direction we want....we are gaining better health with evey workout, with every healthy meal, with every good nights sleep.

    I hope you will notice your gains, and not the ones on the scale. I am proud of your efforts, please don't give up.
    1847 days ago
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