I need to take some updated pics. I haven't been exercising (due to a darn 2 month "sinus infection" that is now being called allergies, but that's a whole different story, lol.) I have been eating better than before, and lost a few pounds. I can't tell by looking in the mirror and haven't been good about taking measurements...so pictures will have to do to check on any progress.
Some days I can't stand looking in a mirror...and some days (despite my nasty self-esteem issue) I realize that many women would kill to have my body. (Don't take that as bragging. I'm not much of a braggart, but it is a huge step for me to acknowledge "truths" about my body.)
What am I talking about? I have no idea! Thus, the title of the blog. Perhaps I need to make some goals....because eat better and exercise more are sucky goals, lol. (Not sucky, but measurable goals prove to be far more effective.)
Ok, well, long term goal that isn't exactly measurable...learn to love my body. I've always had terrible self-esteem...no matter what size. Size 6/8 like now? Hate it. Size 0 two years ago, still wasn't happy. I just need to learn to accept and love what I have! Not completely sure how to go about that, but I'll try!
~ Go to seminary. I dont want to be a pastor/preacher...I just love the knowledge. Been doing very in-depth Bible studies over the past year and loving it! Love what it's doing for me, my life, and those around me.
~ It's actually hard to come up with long-term goals...because I love my life overall. I have such a happy life, I dont feel I need any "changes"..... lol.
Medium-ish Goals (man...my writing tonight is awful! I blame it on the fact that I'm in the last hour of a busy 12 hour day here at the clinic.)
~ Pay off credit cards! Hate this debt! I had a lot of help getting here thanks to the ex.... but I am working hard to pay them off and just printed up some new financial goals to help with this!
~Include at least one (definitely need more, but have to start somehwere..) serving of fruits or veggies with each meal. (Can this include frozen veggies? canned? why not? I'll look into it.)
~ Start running again. I've NEVER been a runner. I was a varsity gymnast, but could NEVER run. I WANT to enjoy running. I think the only way to get there...is to just DO it. A friend a few years ago wanted to do a 5k, but had never run before, so I promised to run with her. We did. I loved it and hated it all at once. (She kept running, and I didn't.)
~Get back into the swing of exercise. Ive never been much of a home exerciser...loved my gym membership, but finances caused me to break-up with my gym.
So, I need to get back to my DVD's... Jillian Michaels kicks my butt. I have some spark DVDs, Pilates, etc. Just do it!! (No Nike afilliation.)
~Start stretching. I DON'T stretch. Like, ever. Well, I know I should. AND, my Little Lady is now in gymnastics classes. She knows I used to be a gymnast and constantly asks me to show her things. Stretching (with her even, sometimes!) would DEFINITELY help in that area! I miss gymnastics...so anything I can get back into...even at this icky age of turning 30 this year...would be awesome!
~Figure out more goals! lol
I will have to re-read this tomorrow, because honestly I don't recall much of what I wrote. My mind has checked out for the evening, lol.