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Raining On The Inside

Sunday, April 28, 2013

This song really expresses how I felt today: emoticon

Today was one of my down days.... It was raining outside the whole day and I felt like it was raining inside too. I had insomnia and nightmares last night and it was one of those days where I just wanted to crawl back in bed and not get up again, but I had to get up at 5:30 to take my husband to the airport in the pouring rain. I made an effort to get through the rest of the day, but nothing seemed to go right. I never did get around to exercising and all I wanted to eat today were carbs...I guess that is nature's antidepressant (eating carbs). I'm going to make myself walk around inside or dance for a bit even though I really do NOT want to. Then maybe a hot bath and going to bed early will help me sleep better tonight. It was one of those days where I just wanted to talk to my mom and put my head on her shoulder and have her tell me, "everything is going to be okay, things will look better in the morning."

Grief is's hard to be stuck in a depressive mood and think that things will be better. I can try to just put on my best Scarlett O'Hara persona and say " I can't think about that right now. If I do, I'll go crazy. I'll think about that tomorrow. After all... tomorrow is another day. "

But sometimes we just can't pull ourselves out of the pit by ourselves. Sometimes we have to reach up and let God heal our hearts. Sometimes we just have to have faith that tomorrow will be better.

"God sees my heart
The deepest part
Inside this lonely me
And reachin' in
His love begins
To heal the heart in me

Sometimes we're raining on the inside
And our hearts well up with tears that start to pour
But when we're raining on the inside
Let His cries of love break through
Know that He loves you, once more...."

Resting on faith....Tomorrow will be a better day! emoticon
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    Every day is another day close to healing. I guess we never fully heal, but it makes life easier to live as time passes.

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    1823 days ago
  • CAROLYN0107
    Rainy days on the inside are bound to come. You were very close to your Mom. It's so good you were with her these many years that she was ill. May the Lord comfort you and dry up that inside rain.
    1823 days ago
    I lost my husband to cancer on Feb 11,2013 and I still mourn his loss. Just like your mother was to you that is what my husband was to me. I have days that I just walk in the house and still expect him to be there but then I remember that he is gone and I just cry because I miss him so. It is hard but I do know that he is with the Lord and one day soon I will see him again and the way it is going in this world I think it will be sooner than what most people are expecting.
    1823 days ago
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