Forced out of my routine, kicking and screaming
Sunday, April 28, 2013
I live a life of predictability and routine. I try to go to bed and wake up at the same times each day. I tend to eat many of the same things every day (it's just easier for me, no decisions.) When the time comes that I'm missing a particular ingredient for my already planned meal, I make a change and frequently I discover that it worked out just as well and I didn't really need that missing ingredient after all.
My predictable home life helps me deal with the unpredictability of my working life. I can never know for sure what will happen once I get in the door so all I can do is walk in to each work day with the expectation that I will handle anything that comes my way.
My daily fitness is equally predictable. I don't use the tracker every day because I know what I do from day to day so every couple of days, I'll enter several days worth of fitness minutes. So I was quite surprised when I discovered that the old fitness tracker I have been using for almost 4 years was gone, replaced by something I wasn't sure how to maneuver. (I know it was introduced sometime back, I had switched back to the old tracker when it was first brought out and that option is no longer available.)
It's amusing to me now to see how I could become derailed by what seems to be a minor change in my routine when every day is about change. I think that so much happens throughout the day that we have no control over and the change that occurred with the exercise tracker was too much to accept, too much like work and not much like fun.
At my job, our computer system is constantly being upgraded, "improvements" that never seem to save us any time. We have no say over this, you show up for work and there it is. Something new to learn while you are still expected to get your work done. It's part of the job and I simply deal with it. To come home and discover this attitude has invaded my private life was just too much for me to take in. I was angry that one of the things I truly do right was being messed with.
This week, I've been following all the comments from people who have been using the old tracker and there's a lot of us SPer's out there who are unhappy with the change and a lot of us who have suggested that we're going to go somewhere else to track our fitness. I did consider that alternative for a brief time but it didn't make sense for me to go that route since it would require another decision and I would still have to spend time learning a new way of tracking. It didn't seem to solve the issue.
The next day, once I realized that my anger had been reduced to irritation (that's my normal progression) I decided to take that irritation and replace it with resignation. Since it was all I had at the moment, I would give it a try. It seemed that using the SP fitness tracker would be more convenient than trying to maintain two different programs.
It's OK. It's not better or worse, it's different. There are some good things there and each day I'm picking up new information. It will work. I still wish I had the option for the old tracker but I will make this work.
So in the same way that I deal with those missing ingredients in my predictable eating, I know that the time will come when I realize that the old tracker will be one more ingredient that I didn't need after all.
And in the same way I deal with my job, I know that I can handle anything that comes my way.
Mom always said, "Life has to change or it would get too boring." OK, Mom, lesson learned AGAIN.