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Okay - So I lied - I'll start today instead

Saturday, April 27, 2013

The best of intentions went out the window this week. Okay that's a bit harsh. Why is it that when I have a good plan to start something new all kinds of crazy things come my way. It's the proverbial BIG TEST OF GRIT!

I had my veggies and salad and beans and all that stuff stocked up on Monday morning. The day went just fine and I was right on track... and then wednesday rolls along and someone has quit at work and they need me in as many evenings as I can cover... and I need the money .... so off I go.

Now I work in a group home for adolescent youth - and as much as we are working on feeding them healthy foods - it is lots of foods that were not on my Eat to Live plan. So my days went fine and then I would find myself at the table with them.. and not doing well with " not eating all that meat and starch." Why is it that even those yucky sidekicks that I normally don't like - were so temptingly tantalizing to me when they were off my list?. My god! I haven't eaten side kicks for over a year, never really liked them and there I was snarfing a bowlful with the boys at dinner time.... Buffalo wings - last night I was smacking my lips on spicy buffalo wings - having an out of body experience seeing myself in the kitchen chomping down the wings - what was that all about???

Here's the thing. My own fault. I failed to organize my own food to take with me because during the day I was working on my own business stuff and then I was running to work my 4 - midnight shift. Just another excuse at poor time management. And why is it that as soon as I say I'm laying off the meat for a couple of weeks - That is all I can think of putting in my mouth!!!!!!!!!

Okay so now its plan B today. It is almost 2 pm - I am going to go make a big salad, throw some chick peas on the bottom of the glad container throw salad on top and pack a small container of balsamic vinegar and olive oil. Today I am ready. Today I am back on track.

I guess I have to look at the past 5 days as a trial run - got it right maybe half the time... but I have to admit I am having a real tough time with all the food that is on hand at the house. It's stuff I don't keep in my house so I'm not tempted. This is a true test of pure will. Because when I close my eyes and remember how good I felt in my body when I was on EAt to Live last year - It is a great feeling. I need to work through all the crazy up and down emotions and sink into healthy eating.

I've been stressed financially and I"m eating my feelings. I have to switch back to working out the stress physically. Walking. DVD's with big bad bob harper. That's what has to happen. I need to get myself back on track. Today. I start again today. And isn't it true that the more times you try to build that skill - the more likely you will be successful????
Someday soon I'll be a Pro!
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    you can do this and you know that if you give up then you have to start over and you are soooooooooooooo worth this ! YOU CAN DO THIS !! If you never start then you WON"T get there ! Each step will lead you there !

    KEEP on keepin on !

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    1823 days ago
    I really can relate to your blog! So often i have the best intentions, usually Monday morning, and then I get side tracked! You did a great job identifying some of your issues. Keep going! emoticon
    1825 days ago
    I think sometimes just sitting back and reflecting can be a great gift. We can either forge ahead - not paying attention to what leads us down those paths or we can pay attention - and adjust our sails.

    I like how you just get up and do what you need to do. It may have been one step back - but it definitely is 2 steps forward!

    1825 days ago
    Congratulations on getting back on the plan TODAY vs. tomorrow or later. That's an important skill to learn. The rest will come in time. You CAN do it! It took losing the weight 4 times before I felt I had the skills and determination to keep it off, and I still have times that make me fearful of regaining.

    Enjoy your salad!
    1825 days ago
    You've taken the first step - way to go!! emoticon
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