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Starting Over....Yet Again

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Wednesday, April 24, 2013

Ugh...well, wouldn't you know it? The DAY after my last blog entry (you know...the one where I was super thrilled because I was two weeks into my half marathon training plan and so proud of myself for making it happen?) Yeah...that one. THE NEXT DAY...that little pain in my shin that I mentioned turned into a much bigger pain. A friend messaged after reading my blog and cautioned that the symptoms I described could possibly be a stress fracture, which can take months to heal. So, I immediately made an ortho appointment and got an MRI. As it turns out, I did NOT have a stress fracture....BUT there are levels of impact injuries that come BEFORE a stress fracture and I guess I was just one more level away from it becoming one. Sad face. No race.

But, I thought on the situation and I knew I couldn't skip the race entirely. My childhood best friend, who I have not seen in 22 years, and I have re-connected on Facebook and she is flying out for 4 days to hang out with me and run the Indy Mini. I couldn't just leave her to fend for herself! So, even though I couldn't run, I signed up to be a Race Volunteer and pass out pretzels and fruit at the finish line. I'm actually VERY excited about this development because I have never been on the volunteer side of things before. But, I tell you what...a runner sure does appreciate every single one of those volunteers during a race. I am ecstatic to be able to see every single one of my friends finish and to help hungry runners feel satisfied after a fun/exciting/difficult/painful
/perfect/record-setting race.

Truthfully, without running, I have been floundering. I took quite a bit of time just contemplating what I am going to do with all these injuries. It seems all of them have been brought about by my obesity and extra weight putting too much repetitive pressure on my bones and joints in my knees, shins and ankles. My ortho says I could correct a lot of it with proper running form and technique...and I have no doubt this is true. However, I've had to take a step back and re-evaluate my entire view of training and racing, Especially in light of my issues with time (or lack thereof).

I have come to a decision that might disappoint some...but it just feels right to me. I am stepping away from long distance running for awhile. Half marathon is not my distance right now. I'm going to focus on swimming, weight training and shorter races (10k being the longest I run...but mostly sticking to 5k). How long??? Well, until I am able to get rid of some more of this weight. I would like to lose about 30 lbs or more before I focus on long distances again. I really think it would make things much easier on my body and on my bones. And I will feel less disappointed in myself if I set more realistic goals for myself. With shorter distances (and swimming just for the fun of it), I feel like I would still have incentive to train, but not feel like I need to be so hardcore all the time. I need to make my workouts a regular routine fun part of my life, get my diet in order and get on the right track weight-wise before I plan any really difficult races.

As for the diet, that has slipped over the past few months...VERY BADLY. In fact, I will openly admit I've gained back 10 lbs. Ugh! But I am hoping to reverse this with the coming of Spring/Summer and weekly trips to the Farmer's Market. I also admitted to the fact that I need help with this area. I am the WORST when it comes to stopping for fast food or eating at restaurants when I don't feel like cooking. It's even worse now that I have weeks where I'm single. It isn't good for my budget, but I rationalize by saying, "I'm just one person. How expensive can it be to eat out by myself?" No more.

I found a Groupon for a site called eMeals.com. I guess it's pretty popular and Oprah has featured it on her show. The Groupon was $29 for 12 MONTHS of meal plans and grocery lists. That is 7 dinners per week planned out for you with recipes and a shopping list. That is PERFECT for me, a very busy single mom who works full-time. There are several plans you can choose from and I selected "Natural & Organic". I am going to take advantage of my Farmer's Market and my local co-op grocery membership. I am starting this week and I can't wait. It seems like a no-brainer, easy way for me to assure that at least ONE key meal per day is going to be healthy and good for me.

I have to believe that if I can find an exercise schedule that works and that I can replicate, and if I can stick to my meal plans, things are going to start moving in the right direction with my weight. I don't care how long it takes...I'm on this journey for life. I'm all about changing my habits right now...and actually making them habits. Eating for freshness and taste and exercising for fun, stress relief and enjoyment. And, really...if I never lose another ounce of weight, isn't that still a pretty great plan? Yeah...I think so too.
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    No judgement here on your modified plan! The key is doing what works for you and you are the very best judge of that! Grab on to your new plan, work it, and tweak it if needed. The meal plan sounds wonderful! I look forward to hearing how you like it.
    1880 days ago
    I actually absolutely love your new plan. I used to try to keep up my miles and it was just to hard with my schedule and so on and so forth. I now have really gotten into a great routine of getting up EVERY morning and getting in 2-3 miles. It took some changes to figure out what worked, what I needed in terms of miles and time of day. It is so mice to have it as a real routine now. I am not burnt out or pressured. I can walk or wog but it is very important to get it done. It has significantly helped my mood and weight.

    I love the meal plan idea. That would be a bit much for me. I am very lazy when it comes to cooking. Just some very basic dishes tops. HUGS. You got this!!!
    1880 days ago
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    Woman, woman, woman...the only way you could disappoint me is to not listen to your body and your spirit, your mind and your heart. You know how to take care of yourself better than little ol' me. I'll just be here cheering you on from the very core of my being. Love ya!
    1880 days ago
    Hi Leah;
    I've missed hearing your stories.This is just a setback, making you slow down and choose another path. Nothing to be critical & disapointed about. This too shall pass. I've kept you on my prayer lists and I believe God will steer you in the right direction for your life's path to make you happy & healthy & just the right weight. You don't need to be harsh with yourself just slow down and take care of your overall health, do what you can to stick to your goals swimming & eating healthy meals riding your bike can all help in keeping your body fueled to lose weight. Don't give up on You, You've come so far, already Your a busy woman, mom & who knows where this new life of yours is going to take you.

    I'll just keep praying for you I know your strong, capable & able to do all you need to do to slow down and still achieve your goals. You have my support You can do all you choose to do.

    Take care & be well. Look for the positive and you'll find it.
    Many Blessings Always Debby emoticon emoticon
    1880 days ago
    You're stepping back from one form of exercise, not quitting. It is a wise decision though a difficult one!! emoticon
    1880 days ago
    I am FFFAAAARRR from disappointed in you. These decisions are hard to make, especially for someone who is as determined as you are. I listened to a running coach say to the effect that as athletes we have to remember our priorities: family, health, and then training. You have to do what is best for you and there is absolutely NOTHING wrong with sticking to 5ks and 10ks!! I'm glad you took care of yourself and continue to make progress in your life--as an athlete and as a person. Keep it up!
    1880 days ago
    Personally, there are so many other activities that - to me - are so much better for the body than running. I'm sure you'll
    find a good alternative or two.
    1880 days ago
    Wow, what an amazing Groupon!!
    It's nobody's place but yours to be disappointed with you and you're clearly not, so nobody else should be either! I know youll kick those 5 and 10Ks into shape : )
    1880 days ago
    Congratulations or deciding to step back for a little while, but not to give up. I was running about three miles a day and I tripped and fell a couple of weeks ago. Broken arm! I spent a week feeling sorry for myself and overeating. Now I'm back to walking as much as I can and eating correctly. You'll get to where you want to be. This is a life journey and life has bumps. emoticon
    1880 days ago
    No one should be disappointed in your decision. It is the right decision for you and your body. I think it is great that you are recognizing that you need to change what you are doing and have a plan. I suspect your Doctor would approve of your new plan also. You only have one body and sometimes, you need to do something different to make sure it doesn't injure.
    1880 days ago
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