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Juicing - Day 1 . . . again

Wednesday, April 24, 2013

If you've read the last blog you know that I fell off the juicing wagon. I tried to use the excuse that the ice cream was melted and I drank it, but I ended up having to concede to the fact that, no matter how I shaped my mouth when I said it, I just couldn't make it sound right. I don't know if I will be able to maintain this for 60 days, but that's because I am completely broke for the next month or two until my financial aid check comes in and I can pay down the credit cards I use to sustain myself between financial aid checks, but I'm going to do the best that I can for as long as I can. This morning I had a most delicious breakfast of spinach leaves, cilantro, apple, carrot, cucumber, and salt, topped with water and extracted into a drinkable form. It is SO good! Then I made - I'm drinking it right now - spinach leaves, flax seed meal, banana (2), frozen strawberries, frozen rhubarb, chocolate protein powder, and topped off with almond milk. It tastes like a milkshake, but without the guilt.

Because of my financial situation while I'm in school I feel like I am just setting myself up for failure by starting something new - like the 60- day juice fast. Until I graduate and begin working it would be more realistic to eat what I am able to eat in moderation, log my nutrition, and work out. I wonder if I attempt to do things like this in an effort to create situations in which I will fail, and maintain these self-fulfilling prophesies which have told me since I was a wee girl that I was a failure. Knowing that I am not a failure unless I intentionally set myself up to fail, wouldn't it be more beneficial to steer clear of situations which I know I am unable to commit to for the long term? In all fairness to myself, I am going to do the best I can for as long as I can, and when I am unable to continue I will eat what is available in moderation. There - no failure need apply!
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    1851 days ago
    The problem with saying 'I'll do it later' is that often later never comes. What if you don't get a stable job right away? Will you be willing to spend the time and money then? What if you get a job that is fast-paced and stressful, making it even more difficult to make the changes then? Is it really worth putting off changes for another day when it 'might possibly' be better, when you could have already made the changes before a hundred other life changes are forced upon you?

    Instead of thinking how you could fail, why not consider that this isn't a win/lose situation, but just something that is? If you don't label it as something that is good or bad, just that you're doing it, then it's hard to fail. If nothing else, at least stick with 'fake it til you make it' - if it doesn't work out like you hope it does, then it's a practice run to learn from as you try again. It's not like if you can't do it perfectly you never have another chance to try again.

    Besides, life will always continue on. Good days happen, bad days happen, we feel happiness and sadness, anger and love, pleasure and pain, and through it all life continues to move forward around us. If we gave up and stopped living our lives any time we didn't do something perfectly we never would've learned to crawl, walk, gone to school, had friends, or done anything that is worth doing. In every moment you have the chance to learn and try again - as long as you don't give up.
    1857 days ago
    You are in no way a failure. Anyone who knows your life story knows that you are a survivor. You are a winner. On your way to better and better things.
    1857 days ago
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