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"Disappoint everyone but don't disappoint yourself"

Tuesday, April 23, 2013

"Disappoint everyone but don't disappoint yourself" ~ a line from Chicago Fire

In the case of Spark People if I disappoint myself I think I will disappoint everyone else too emoticon
I started my weight loss journey in January 2006! 7 years ago!!! (that is when I started Weight Watchers) I have always been over weight all my life. I played softball, was on the swim team all winter...never stayed still when I was a kid but I was still a chunky kid. When I was in HS I was still chunky but still always moving band and I was still chunky but still moving...working 2 jobs and going to school learned really fast you need to take at least 1 day a week to do nothing!! Well I think between that crazy schedule and I found the guy I ended up marrying emoticon When I met my husband I was a size 14 when we got married I was a size 18. After we got married I got a new job at a bank...and stopped moving...well not as much anyway. Before I knew it I was on the verge of wearing a size 26 and when I saw the pictures from my brothers wedding I was not happy! I needed to make a change and I did!!! I lost 75lbs in about 2 years I figured this was a good pace slow and steady. Then I had some things go on in my life that for me were tough and made me a stronger person but in the mean time I gained 40lbs of the 75 lost back! Then I went through the motions for awhile. They changed up the location of our meetings and I was driving in the opposite direction from home and wasting too much time and money in gas so I went looking for a new leader to connect with and when it didn't happen right away and I was able to make some money in OT I started to just weigh in and leave and not stay for meetings. I knew if I quit then I would never go back so I had to keep going. By luck I found the leader I have now who I absolutely adore! She is a little nutty like me emoticon She has lost over 100lbs and she is not perfect by any means...not that any of the leaders between my original leader and this one were perfect I just didn't feel like I could do anything wrong, no slip ups allowed or I already lost everything they had in total and I was just beginning...just didn't connect! Well I got back up to the 75lb mark a year ago April 2012! Took longer than I expected. I was well on my way to get to my next goal of 100lbs by my 40th birthday when I hurt my knee...don't know what I did but I couldn't do much, heck for almost a month I did practically nothing! I was able to lose another 9 lbs and was so close to 85lbs I could taste it and then the slow slide backwards! At first I thought it was still my knee which to a small extent I am probably right. When I didn't have limitations is when I was losing like every week and I was on a roll! Now I have to be careful. I have been doing other things that I am sure are helping me but I don't like them as much and I think that can be hindering my progress. I have been changing up my diet even tried doing the no carb thing...couldn't do it...I have changed them up to whole grains and cut back on how much carbs I eat in the evening. This week I am trying to focus on the sugar intake and staying within my points and not even using my activity points. I am not feeling it is working but I know in the past some of my best weeks on the scale were unexpected. I am also trying to notice the non-scale victories and the only one that is helping right now is the fact that as of summer of 2011 I am no longer on High Blood pressure medicine and I plan to keep it that way! My latest goal is to just lose 2 weeks in a row...I want to get back to the 75lb mark emoticon before Memorial Day would be nice. I would still like to lose 100lbs by my next birthday but that would mean I would have to lose 3.5lbs every week so I will be happy if I can lose the 100 by next spring!
Everyone here is so supportive even if they are telling me "it takes time" after 7 years I definitely know that emoticon and "everyone hits a plateau" but I feel this isn't a plateau I am moving in the wrong direction! I wish my knee didn't give me problems but I am also determined to prove the insurance company wrong and make it 100% once again!

I guess I just need to know that other people have gotten to their goal but it took way more time then they thought it would. When I started Weight Watchers I knew it was going to be for life but I didn't think it would take the rest of my life to get to goal. emoticon

Thanks for being here for me! I wish I could give everyone a Goodie!!!!!!


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    I have joined WW more times than I can count on both hands. I have never reached goal... never lost more that 28 lbs . But like you I am not giving up.

    The greatest gift you have given yourself is the fact that YOU know you can do this, because you HAVE done it before. How awesome!

    Mallory emoticon
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    You are AWESOME! Thanks for sharing your journey with us. Keep up the GREAT work!

    1852 days ago
    It took me 11 years to lose 156 pounds, but has taken me only a year to put back on 40 of those lost. Like you Jenny, I have had ups and downs, I have wanted to throw in the towel so many times. BUT.....I know I can do this. I know its going to take time and commitment on my part. None of us are perfect, but we keep trying. Hang in there my friend.
    1852 days ago
  • LESLEE33
    I don't think there is anybody here that hasn't taken a step forward, and 2 steps back. The key is to never give up on yourself. Life will always throw us some curve balls, and it's up to us to decide if we are going to slide back into our old habits, or if we are going to dust ourselves off, and start again. I wish you all the best! You got this! emoticon emoticon
    1853 days ago
  • ELSCO55
    I know how hard it is. At least you have made the time and the commitment. It will happen. Congrats on the journey and your accomplshments.
    1853 days ago
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