35 Minutes: I did it!
Tuesday, April 23, 2013
Today is day one of week 4 of my 5k Running training. Today is the day I needed to run for 35 minutes without stopping. I knew I could do 20. I knew that, with two rest days, if there was a day this week I could do it, it would be today. But I was still really nervous that I wouldn't be able to. I told myself I needed to do at least 25 minutes.
I started running and the first 10 minutes flew by. Around minute 16, it started getting harder, but I kept plugging along. Minute 25 came and I wanted to stop, but I definitely didn't need to. I felt a LOT better than I had when I hit minute 20 last week, after all. Minute 30: Only 5 minutes left, I can do that. And I did! I ran for 35 minutes without stopping! 3.2 miles. My heart rate was still good, I didn't feel like I was going to fall over, and I beat my previous 5k pace by almost 2 minutes, with still 5 more training days to go! I'm feeling pretty good about myself.
I spent a lot of time on the treadmill thinking about my fitness level. About how I feel like I will never be able to run as fast and for as long as I want. About how I feel weak. I want to get stronger, faster, and go longer, but I feel like I'll never be able to. That my body just won't let me.
But wait a minute, I tell myself. I'm on freaking minute 16 of a run! Earlier this year I couldn't even hold a 2/3 walk/run set of intervals! There was a time where I started to struggle after just one minute of running. Today I did 10 without even feeling it!
My brain, my poor self esteem, and 21 years of not being fit can lie to me all they want. They can tell me I won't get better. That I won't achieve my goal of a 31:00 5k and beyond. But the treadmill doesn't lie. Those number are real. And they are improving, week by week. Whether I always recognize it or not, today I proved that I can run for 35 minutes straight. Whether I feel like one or not, I AM a runner. And I can accomplish whatever I put my mind to.