I've Decieded

Okay, so after a week of worrying, fretting, thinking, and brooding, I've finally made up my mind. I've decided to try again, but instead of going for clinical I'm going to go for experimental. I'm only going to apply to I.S.U. It's not fair to my husband or family to move all over the country. His business it based here, and my children are have wonderful services that are here. I don't think it would be wise to up root them and make them start all over again.

So, if I don't get in this time, then its just not meant to be. My first priority needs to be my family. My education is my safety net. I may not ever use it to provide for my family, but I want it to be their just in case. I've just gotten too caught up in my personal success and the freedom of feeling single again while at school that I've was beginning to lose my focus.

I became consumed with school, and my achievement. I lacked moderation. Being denied the opportunity to continue directly has made me more aware of how unbalanced I am become.

Because of my time at home, I have been able to take care of my health, my children, and regain the balanced I had lost.

Thank you my Dear Heavenly Father for giving me a slap upside the head, and halting my downward spiral. With you the best Dreams will come true and blessing you never thought of may make you the happiest. His will is always better than my own, and sometimes I have to be reminded of that.