It's okay not to be perfect

Tuesday, April 23, 2013

So being in the real estate law business, this last week of the month is a really busy one for me so I havent been on here much. Not to mention, I am trying to break some of my obsessive compulsive tendencies which includes feeling like I need to blog every day (and calorie count like I had blogged about before).

It's just so much my personality to obsess on things. It's the perfectionist in me that just needs everything perfect. Yesterday I was going to blog about my skate race this past weekend and it was going to look something like this:

In the 3 girl relay and 4mix relay I felt pretty good, but a little sluggish at first. I got 3rd in the 3 girl and did not place in the 4mix.

In the open race I was very proud of myself for placing 5th. This tends to be one of the most difficult races because it is the longest and has the most people. I do think I needed to be more aggressive in making passes and not letting people pass me.

In the individual 500m race I place 3rd. I got stuck behind a really slow girl on the start and it held me back a lot. I'm not sure I had anything for first or second place, but I didn't give myself much of an opportunity to try by taking so long to pass.

In the 1500m I got 2nd. I felt pretty good in the race, my legs were finally starting to feel good. I still think I was a little cautious in this race and wasn't focused.

In the 2girl relay, I felt AMAZING. We got 4th and did not podium, but I was skating absolutely amazing and was very pleased, but still a little bummed that my partner wasn't skating quite as well.

In the outdoor 500m, I got 4th overall and 2nd in my age group. I got a really bad start, but closed in a huge gap so I was pleased with that.

In the outdoor 10k I got 3rd overall and 2nd in my age group. I kind of go back and forth with this race. I mixed it up a lot and threw a lot of passes, but being an endurance skater, I needed to push the pace and I never did because I was hesitant that my legs weren't feeling good. I've never been afraid to push the pace so I wasn't sure why I was and never did!

Now looking at the above, I can just see the obsessiveness and perfectionism! I obsess over every little detail and I think that's why I get so nervous and don't perform as well at skating competitions. I just put so much pressure on myself.

I'm really trying to let loose a little bit though and not obsess and harp on every little detail. It's okay not to be perfect.
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    Perfectionism won't allow me to get off the treadmil until I hit an even number in miles or in minutes. Heaven forbid I should stop the mil when it hits an odd number.haha
    It's hard to find a balance between doing things to the best of our abilities and feeling like you MUST be the best.
    1845 days ago
    getting an obsession out of your system is fine if you don't replace it with another one. I think I have been through several obsessions in my short Sparklife but gradually they have gone away. As I unpeel the onion and find out what has been eating me I take up healthier habits.
    I am still a very long way from my ultimate goal but the scale won't get there any faster by weighing every day. I'm trying to learn what "satisfied" feels like, rather than going on to feeling full. It's a weird thing to be learning something which should have been "normal".
    Good luck with the busy work week
    1880 days ago
    Learning that you don't have to be perfect is a HUGE step! So many fail at losing weight, getting fit, even other aspects of their life, because they figure if they can't be perfect, it's not worth doing.

    You're learning otherwise!
    1881 days ago
  • CHERIJ16
    I am impressed with all that you did and can do! I can't even stand up on skates! (LOL) You should be proud of your achievements. I have learned to laugh at myself and to take myself a little less seriously as I've grown older. A sense of humor helps. However it's also good to set a goal and try to achieve it. emoticon
    1881 days ago
  • SKATER787
    It's not all good or all bad. Nothing is. Obsessiveness and perfectionism comes in handy at times. It can be really helpful with your work and skating performance. It takes obsessiveness to perfect a technique. Just be thankful that you're that way.
    1881 days ago
  • SUNSHINE99999
    nobody is so go easy on yourself. emoticon
    1881 days ago
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