HELLO_SWEETIE88

SparkPoints
 

Yesterdays Training

Tuesday, April 23, 2013

Squats w/ TRX 3x20
Lateral Lunges w/ TRX 3x20
Step-up w/bicep curl and then raise, alternating legs, 10lb each 3x20

Single leg squats on bench 3x12
Dumbbell Snatch 3x15 each side
Push-up w/TRX 3x20

Forward Lunge w/ cable oblique twist 30lb 3x12 each side
Overhead Side Bend with 10lb medicine ball, dropping and picking up ball 3x 1 min
Plank ups 5 each arm x3

20 Min elliptical


I'm trying really hard not to get discouraged.
I've been at this training for just shy of 2 months now. And I can't see a difference.
I haven't lost anything. MAYBE 2lbs, on a good day.
She says i look better each time she sees me. Which i and thankful for. I know I see myself everyday, and i see my worst flaws.
Other people have told me im looking better, even my most critical friend haha.
But I want to see it, i want to feel it.
I know when i'm working out i can do more, do it better, i am getting stronger, which makes me happy.
But.
I'm going to California in a little over 2 weeks. I was so hoping for a bigger change. Like a pant size, I want to wear some of my old clothes. SHORTS. Something.
I'm just feeling so down about the whole thing.

I also feel terrible because we are spending so much money on the gym and my trainer, and its not that we cant pay our bills because of it, we really just have to tighten our belts. Its a constant cause of stress and arguments with me and the hubs.
It makes me feel awful that i'm spending all this money on me, and i don't even see it working.

I'm just so scared of ending up like the rest of my family, SUPER overweight.
I need to do this now, to prevent all of that.

*sigh*

I must carry on.
Share This Post With Others
Member Comments About This Blog Post

    Be the First to Add Your Comment to the Blog Post

    Log in to post a comment


    Disclaimer: Weight loss results will vary from person to person. No individual result should be seen as a typical result of following the SparkPeople program.
 

More Blogs by HELLO_SWEETIE88