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I'm Still Here!

Monday, April 22, 2013

So now that I've passed the PMP, I need to refocus and figure out what my goals are. *heavy sigh* Ooh, you know what that heavy sigh means! I better start small since I'm already overwhelmed!

Striking the right work-life balance is difficult. I have a lot of competing responsibilities. Work consists of training, testing, and triage. How's that for alliteration? The three Ts aren't going anywhere, so I need to just face them, work through them, AND still find time for ME.

I'm promising myself to go to Zumba this week. I haven't went in ages and I really miss it. I want to run a 5k, but I don't want to fork out any money for an entrance fee. I know, what a tight wad, right?!

I still hate tracking food. Will that ever change? Maybe. I think I hate it because I've been overeating. When I have it together, taking the time to track ain't nothin' but a thing. I'm working on getting it together, but my mind feels muddy, chaotic, unfocused.

I know I'm one workout away from a better mood. So, why do I continue to avoid it? I'm just really angry right now. I can point to a few sources of the anger, but this isn't me. I feel stuck. I don't like feeling stuck. I must solve this problem!

Instead of dreading work, I'm willing myself to be positive. I wrote out a To Do list that I didn't touch on Friday. My goal for tommorow is to start chipping away at that list. I'm going to start by geting a good night's sleep. Here's to waking up on the right side!!
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  • AMBER281
    Congrats on passing your PMP!
    1880 days ago
    We all go through these slumps. being overwhelmed, etc... you will get it together again!!
    1882 days ago
    emoticon on passing your PMP! emoticon
    Brenda you're smart, determined, and goal driven. I know you'll find a way to make time for yourself. You've got this!
    1886 days ago
    Stop and do a breathing exercise and then take a short 10 minute walk around the neighborhood. Whenever I am feeling stressed or anxious exercising helps relieve it and also helps my control my breathing which also calms me down. It's good to see that you are still here and I hope that we will see you on the next 5% Challenge!
    1887 days ago
    Brenda, I am so happy you still are here. You can do this and we are here to support and cheering on you. Let;'s do this together!!!!
    1887 days ago
    You're only one workout away from a great mood!!!! Even taking a 5 minute fitness break at work can help! Keep pushing my friend!
    1887 days ago
    Congrats on passing the PMP! You got this under control! emoticon
    1888 days ago
    Glad to read your blog. I think that facing work & life head-on and taking things as they come is the answer. Just be in the moment and do what you need to do. When I focus on getting things done, one thing at a time... one minute at a time.... they seem to go more smoothly. Do what you KNOW you need & should do and the rest falls into place. Remember, taking care of YOU has to be a priority for you. Who else is going to do it? Bright blessings to you my friend. Enjoy your Zumba!
    1888 days ago
  • TANYA602
    The balance is always so hard. I know by Mondays I have to fight the resistance to stay home so that I can stay on track - with my workouts and eating/tracking. I hope that with some sunny days, you find a renewed vigor and only happy moods. We are doing a 5K in 3 weeks - this one had an early registration 20% off so we felt like we couldn't pass. I hope you find something similar!
    Have a terrific day!
    1888 days ago
    I always feel that way about 5Ks, however, you can find some really cheap ones ($10-$15), and you discover that it's so worth it to pay that money, just for the experience! :D
    1888 days ago
    Our attitudes can make our life so much harder! We just have to get over ourselves.

    I hope things look better after a good night's sleep, and that you get to a Zumba class soon.

    Also, 5ks in my area usually have a $15-$25 registration fee. I'm not sure about your area, but 15-25 dollars spent on something you want to do isn't too much.
    1888 days ago
    Knowing what you have to do to feel better is one thing, taking that first tough step is another. YOU CAN DO IT! Get yourself back on track, check just one thing off of your to do list today. I always feel so much better when I do that!

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    1888 days ago
    I know the feeling. Probably best to set yourself an easy goal for a first to get yourself back on track with tackling that list. Good luck and keep sparking. emoticon emoticon emoticon
    1888 days ago
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