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Getting back in the driver's seat

Sunday, April 21, 2013

Last night I was lying in bed thinking about the past few days, weeks etc.... how up and down it's been and how I've started being too reactive - giving in to junk foods, not making time to work out and just letting the days slide by without looking after me.

So i had a good talk with myself and decided that I need a little structure. I need to get into the driver's seat and get control of this ride of life that I am on. Sitting in the back row just ain't doing it for me.

I feel better already today and its' early afternoon. Making up my mind to get on course again and having some resolve about it is what is helping. I had fruit for breakfast and didn't give in to the sausage and eggs that hubby was eating - just made enough for him. Pass for me. Little steps.

Now I"m going to go make a salad with a bit of beans for protein. One healthy meal at a time.

Maybe I needed that blow out to get me back on track. I've had my temper tantrum now I'm calming down. Last year when I was doing the eat to live I lost 30 lbs. So I've put 10 back on - now its time to get serious again. Enough with the stop and start. I need to accept that I can't eat like I've been eating and lose weight. Why did I stop? Who knows - maybe I got scared of being thin again.

I have to make an effort at this. I have to feel how un - normal it feels to eat differently. When I was lying in bed last night I was thinking about how good my body felt when I was eating veggies fruit and beans as my base. I need to get back there. I need to eat to live instead of living to eat. Feeling light and energetic needs to be my normal instead of bloated and sluggish......

Okay. ONe meal at at time. One day at a time. I'm working at this. Eat to live gives me structure and helps me eat on track. And I know it works for me. Now I have to believe in me - that I'm worth it. That I deserve to be healthy and fit again.

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  • MARIANNE9855
    you're on your way back up! I read somewhere the analogy of you wouldn't keep filling up your car with gas if it was already full- I try to remember that and other little sayings- since our bodies are like our cars- but it is hard.

    Today I was at a bridal shower- the food wasn't that great- it took a long!!!!!time for the bride to open all her gift so I drank more coffee and ate the cake- pretty small piece but because I was bored. It's so frustrating and annoying when you have food you don't really want to eat but there is nothing else- then I am mad later that I wasted my calories on that and not something I would make for myself and enjoy and I want to eat more later. Oh well, I am drinking lots of water- but that means I will be awake all night getting up for the bathroom- good its monday tomorrow emoticon
    1883 days ago
    Like I always say, 'You are special enough to eat special' Everybody else in this world does exactly what they want, so do I . This is how I want to eat. :-0
    1883 days ago
    Isn't it amazing how fast the days can turn into weeks, and months? I am feeling the same way. When I was working hard at weight loss it was like time went by so slowly, but when I'm eating random junk it flies by ha ha. ;)

    I had my FIRST good day yesterday, ate under 1500 calories for the first time in well over a month, and it helped me to feel like I don't "have" to be out of control. I know I am still in the danger zone and I won't feel fully back on track until I've been doing okay for about a week, but we can do this. One day and one meal at a time. We know how to do it, and starting is the hardest. Once we can get back to our groove we won't have to work as hard. There was a time where this stuff was easier for us, where eating right and exercising were just something we did without thinking about it... and we will get back to that happy place. emoticon emoticon

    1883 days ago
    Thank you for sharing! I am reading this as my 13 year old is making cupcakes because according to her she hasn't had any in a long time. (She does not have any weight problems!) So, I am holding on to your "one meal at a time". I also need to learn to eat to live not live to eat. Thanks!
    1883 days ago
    Good for you for making a plan and taking the first steps. That's so much better than doing nothing and later wishing you'd started today.

    I agree that it DOES get easier. Eventually, some of the things that so entice and tempt you now will not seem to be so desirable. Keep your goals firmly in mind. You CAN do this. emoticon
    1883 days ago
  • 68ANNE
    1883 days ago
    It is hard to pass on things that aren't conductive to our goals but it does get easier, and you get stronger. And there is NOTHING that will taste as good as your slim healthy body will feel, when enough meals to by for you to start reaching some of your goals. I'm proud of you, for getting started with a few baby steps. You are doing great and off to a good (re) start.
    1883 days ago
    Very good. It is nice that you notice the small differences in how you feel. Best wishes!
    1883 days ago
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