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Day 4.21 Why

Sunday, April 21, 2013

I was trying to analyze why things were different this time around--basically why I'm still here, still working out, still eating better. I've decided getting too in-depth with the analysis thing isn't always in my best interests (it seems to hang me up somehow) but I can see some of the more obvious things pretty clearly.

--I'd had enough. Crappy, crappy year of crap made me realize there are a lot of things I can't control--but this, this I can. So I will.
--Realizing that I'd spent HALF MY LIFE trying and failing and trying and just getting further and further away from my goals with each failure. Also realizing at the same time that it was ALL MY OWN DOING. All of it. I'm where I am because of the decisions I made, over and over again.
--Getting sick and tired of being the weak, pathetic victim. I'm a victim of my own circumstances, nothing more. I can change those circumstances, and I did.
--Having the financial means to finally hire a trainer. Having the balls to finally hire a trainer. Lol. Having someone that close to me, picking me apart, was unnerving! But he didn't pick me apart-if anything he's helping put me back together.
--Realizing eating healthier is not difficult once you DECIDE it's not difficult.
--More support in the way of an awesome online weightlifting community Fitocracy FTW. :) Thank you YOOVIE. :)
--Maybe a little because I want to be fit enough to hike a volcano when we go to Hawaii. :) :)

That sums it up pretty well. I really can't say enough about getting outside support--as much as I avoided it for many years, believing I should just be able to do it all on my own, it's really very comforting and energizing to know there are others out there that :)

Now, if the weather would just co-operate and stop SNOWING so I can start jogging again and get to my goal of running 5k, I'd be super happy. :)

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  • LE7_1234
    "Why" is sometimes the worst question to ask...

    Doesn't help you answer "what can I do now" or "how can I make a change"....
    1861 days ago
    You are so right - there are so many things we can't control, but THIS we can. I CAN eat an extra serving of vegetables today. I CAN get up and exercise for 10 minutes, even though I don't feel like it. All those small decisions add up and take us where we want to go. Please know there are lots of us right alongside you on this healthy lifestyle journey, cheering you on!
    1862 days ago
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