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Saturday, April 20, 2013

First Good News
My brother got engaged last night :)
Second he is FINALLY going to fight his ex wife for child support, so she has to either get a job and pay or JAIL. She left in 07
Bad News=My dad now has my brothers ex wife living with him-(same bro as above)
Saddens me that my Dad is showing my brothers the monster he has always been to me.
It breaks my heart that my dad would chose trash over his own grand children. Same trash who left her kids and never looked back.
The people who do not know my dad is a child molester think he is something special and are shocked he would do this to my brother. The people like me who spent years in foster-care because of him know what a monster he is.
How do you think my nephews are going to feel when they find out their Mom is living with their grandpa?
Their mom that is living 10 minutes away now and makes no effort what so ever to do anything but call them.
Their mom that is staying there and knowing she is keeping the kids and my brother away from our dad
I am truly and fully with my Dad.
I gave him a 2nd chance after high school. I am done.
I forgave him the first time around because I loved my Mom and brothers and wanted them in my life.
Now that he has hurt one of them in such a way I realize he just does not deserve my forgiveness anymore. Well more so he does not deserve to have a relationship with me. I'll keep forgiving him for MY SAKE. AND MY SAKE ALONE but I am done giving him chanches to be a good parent. He does not deserve to know me.
I thank God for allowing my heart to heal from the pain of the hands of my Dad.
Without Gods love I never would have survived this far. But I am blessed.
I am loved.
I have 2 wonderful brothers, 2 wonderful nephews and we are all that we need.
My prayers for my brother finding someone to love him and the kids have been answered by God. Kids have someone to be a mom to them now and be there for them and love them the way they always deserved but never had. Brother has someone.
God really does heal.
Look at me.
I was abused for 15 yrs sexually, physically and mentally by my dad and yet I'm here, was able to forgive both my parents and have a part in the life of them from age 18 until mom died.
I lost my home in 07 to the flood, thrown back into the home of my abuser for 2 months and yet I'm here.
I own my 2nd home, Paid cash for it with the money I got from loss my first one.
I don't drive but I have no need to.
I dont work right now but I have my grandma living with me who I have had sick for years tending to her every health problem while having fibromyalgia and fighting my own demons, trust me this is harder than any job I've worked.
If I can rise above everything the devil has thrown into my life trying to make me miserable,
then anyone can. If I can be a good loving person after all that has went sour. then anyone can.
God is so good.
Thanks be to God for everything.

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    1820 days ago
    You are a blessed child of the most high God and he will never leave you nor forsake you. Keep the faith!! emoticon
    1822 days ago
    1822 days ago
    Wow .. Not easy dealing with the various issues you have listed here no wounder you get tired with fibromigia and somewhat frusated at times. emoticon

    You have managed to survive these challenges and still stay positive. Keep us posted when you can. emoticon emoticon
    1823 days ago
    I hadn't heard from you lately and was hoping you were okay and I can see now that you were going through a lot. You are very courageous and have the part of the family that means a lot to you, with you, and that's special; that's what counts. May God bless you and your brother, nephews and grand mother, and his new wife-to-be. AND have a GREAT week!

    Love, Chelsea emoticon
    1823 days ago
    1824 days ago
    Yes, He is good! I had a dad just like that. He's gone now and I don't miss him.
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    1824 days ago
    God is good!
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  • ANYVAR54
    God bless you, you are making progress, and I am glad that your brother was able to fine a good woman to love him and his boys.
    1824 days ago
    While my father didn't do things as long as yours did, I don't feel for him as a father, but as an abused man himself, who had his own demons to fight, but instead passed some of the pain along. At least I know that he did try to find God and may have even succeeded toward the end of his life. I feel pity for my father, rather than the love of a daughter. He is gone now.
    1824 days ago
    Forgiving someone does not mean that you have to keep putting yourself in that same position again. So your forgiving for yourself is entirely appropriate.

    God bless you.
    1824 days ago
  • FREEBIRD7100
    I am sorry for all that you went thru. This thought came to me as I read your post. Metal is hardened and shaped in the fire. Sometimes for us, going thru the fire brings shape and form to our lives. Making us who God wants us to be. Sounds like you are on target with forgiveness. Forgiveness IS for you, the forgiver, and your walk, not necessarily for the forgiven.

    I am glad that you have a good family base with your brothers and your nephews. God bless you for all that you have gone thru and the growth that you continue to have.

    I am sorry for what your brother is going thru, I did have to deal with my ex not paying child support & it was well worth it to have CS arrest him & force him to pay. If only to remind him that he has an obligation that he has ignored and now can no longer ignore. Hitting him in the pocketbook. (just like your bothers ex) He has not seen his kids since 2001 and they are better off. My late husband WAS their father & he will always be remembered as the man who raised them & who they called Dad. I am betting your nephews will feel the same about your SIL-to be. Glad that he is getting his and his sons lives back on track.

    Take care & have a blessed day
    1824 days ago
    I am so sorry emoticon
    1825 days ago
    Keep plugging away. Seems like you have found the victorious way up the mountain, walking step by step with your Lord.
    1825 days ago
    I am so sorry for your situation and the situation your brother and nephews are facing.

    Forgiveness is NOT for your father - he will have to answer for his own life sometime. FORGIVENESS IS FOR YOU - it doesn't mean you allow him back into your life, or that you condone and/or accept what he has done or is doing - it simply means that you are taking away the power he holds over you to make YOUR life one of misery and pain. Forgiveness allows you to move on with your life and to no longer be held hostage by someone who has hurt you so deeply that you are not truly able to move on in your own life. He probably isn't giving either you or your brother a second's thought - but YOU, on the other hand are stewing and fretting about his. Forgiveness also is difficult but you can CHOOSE to ask for the strength to forgive him eventually and in the meantime, ask God to do it for now. That is what I had to do in a situation that was particularly painful - ask God to forgive until I was able to finally let go and do it myself.

    (HUGS) what a horrible man your father sounds like.
    1825 days ago
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