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Eyes wide shut

Friday, April 19, 2013

I spent 4 years living in Boston. Loved every minute of it. Except the winter. And the super hot summers. And the high cost of living. But I have great memories there nonetheless, and I left many friends behind.

This past week has been surreal for me. I used to go watch the marathon, enjoyed walking around the city, and generally felt safe. As much as Monday's events shook me, today's are much much more difficult to watch. Seeing live pictures on facebook from a friend's house, right next to where the shootout occurred, to pics of the bullets lying on the street, to the portion of a bomb right next to her jeep, I can't stand that this is happening right near those I care about. I understand on the broader world scale this kind of thing happens. Terror happens. Crazy happens. And it should be just as disturbing when no matter where it happens, be it Syria, Iraq, Chechnya, or Boston. But honestly, it's not. It's harder to watch when someone I care for is at risk. Maybe that makes me selfish.

But now I have to do something else selfish. I need to just turn it off. Give myself a break from the coverage. Because watching it with my eyes wide open is causing me significant anxiety, and doesn't really help anyone anyway. So time to turn it off. Watch with my eyes wide shut.

To anyone in Boston, I hope you stay safe. I'll check in tomorrow night---hopefully by then it will all be over.
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  • SUNSET09
    It is sad and at this moment, the best thing to do is prayer. It won't stop here and there are times, we need to pull up. The media gets us so caught up in what they perceive and want us to hear, however it goes so much further than that. It's not selfish to feel this way. As the saying goes, once it happens to you. I didn't know anyone however, it's a sad state of affair to lose one life and although it was just three, it's three too many. I'm not even in the U.S. as it affects us all. This could have happened anywhere and we don't know the day nor the hour! emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon
    1885 days ago
    so very sad, but it does happen here and everywhere
    1885 days ago
    And give yourself a big kudos/pat on the back for being a sane, rational human being with sense! Good job! Keep the sanity! (But also, go cut loose with fun and silly for a bit..I have this odd philosophy, sometimes you just have to go a little crazy to stay sane!)
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