I so wish I could escape here today... well my ultimate wish would be to live by a place like this to see it every single day!
Second blog today... Second day of challenges... At work not even an hour when my youngest calls to say she fell back asleep and missed her bus. I don't have other people who can bring her in ... so I had to bus back home (almost an hour) and drive her to school as I did not want her to miss (she had a test and I made an appointment for her to see the school counselor today - MUCH needed!!).
I spoke to my boss, who again is
and he told me to work from home ... which I am (and so grateful for in that I can actually do this). I will however have to reconfigure my morning routine going forward which really upsets me because I really liked my early work hours of 7 to 3 as it allowed for me to be home by 4 (and I'm such an early riser by nature). My daughter takes the bus at 7:30 so now I have to make it so I am home and this does NOT happen again. When summer arrives I can switch back to my earlier shifts and on days that there are PD days or they are not in school for other reasons (class trip coming up).
It also means reconfiguring my whole body/system and routine ... I was so set in my pattern - 3:30am wake up - read, blog, email, Spark and workout - shower by 5 and out the door to catch the bus just before 6 to be at work just before 7.
Now the night's will have to be planned out as I won't be home early enough to make dinner - so it means more pre-planning - which will happen more next week.
The stressors don't stop with the kids either... Financially I receive support payments that are governed through the Family Responsibility Office and they switched their systems and I have yet to be paid for April (I usually one payment by the 5th and the other before the 10th). I count on this money to get me by!!
So today is going to be challenging to stay AF - because I am at home - because I have access - because I am very frustrated!!
I know that I have to hold it together 'for the kids' but when is MY time going to come!! Thus the 'take me away' theme... I do try to stay strong and positive - but this is becoming difficult with one hit after another lately. It seems every day I am dealing with something! I know 'this too shall pass'... and not soon enough for me...
On the positive side - I have a job, able to work from home and it's a beautiful sunshine day - and my lunchtime walk is going to be by the river .... and I'm home so I can fire up the BBQ for dinner. I still have my friend who texts me and kind of 'takes me away' as he makes me smile and think of other things outside of my parenting role.
No matter what the day brings - I know there will always be some GOOD in it... on some days we just have to work harder to see it.... but I'm going to