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Back to finish what I started. Even if it's by starting back at the beginning.

Monday, April 15, 2013

I've been gone over a year. It has been an emotional and disappointing time. I've gone back and read all of my blog posts from the beginning. Looking at the motivation and determination. Also the excuses. In my time away, I managed to gain everything back that I lost. The short of it, is I suffered a really bad injury in my foot. Add this to the serious depression I was suffering from. And that was a recipe for the self destruction that ensued. Since that time I've dealt with my issues. Some that will never be gone. The injury in my foot has cause arthritis in my toe which is not my friend. I am treating that the best I can, and am no longer going to hide behind that excuse. I've left the job that was making my life as miserable as possible. Since that time I lost the job that I had gone to and have been unemployed for 5 months. Now that the back story is out of the way. It's time to get this train rolling again. A new me. A new mindset. No more excuses. My life will get better one day at a time. I've been working on changing things little by little the last couple of weeks. I've live the last year on nothing but diet Pepsi. I've been working towards a no soda lifestyle. If I have one or two, I'm not going to be upset about it. But I've added water to my daily intake and keep increasing that intake. I've begun taking vitamins because I was just so blah. I have spent my unemployment just eating like crap. not leaving the couch. Sick. Today I will be beginning my workout routine. Mostly cardio at first. I am more out of shape than anytime in my life. I also started my food tracker again today. I'm usually a person who would say don't look back. Well, I want to look back Look at where I was when I started this journey, and remind myself that I have a path to clear in front of me. I have a journey to continue on. I have to finish what I've started.
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    Hey yes, each part of our lives has a chapter in it. And that is part of what makes our journey our own. It is needful sometimes to reflect in order to move forward better. You doing the right thing. And starting doable choices at a time. Start with what you can do & be so happy about it! That was one of my things I did & advised soo many others to do. I was scared as heck when I started...I had never been scared to exercise in my life before--but starting back end of April 2013 I was scared I might up & die! :P So my new choice was to concentrate on a 10min walk. That's it. I told myself not to worry on the binge eating, just get that 10 min walk in a day. If I did more, that was great and if I did 10 that was great too! I just choose to tell myself, "Mon, you did a 10 minute walk. That was a healthy choice! Be proud of it!" Those little messages help. :) Thrilled for you to see you pushing onwards inspite of all the challenges. emoticon emoticon emoticon
    1358 days ago
  • JMANDA86
    As much as being unemployed is awful and sucks, it gives you time to focus on you. I got started on here last fall when I was unemployed and had all the time in the world to work out. When I lost a lot 3 and a half years ago, I was hardly employed.

    Use the crappy time to your advantage and you'll feel sooo sooo much better when the right job happens to come along. I also firmly believe that companies hire a fit person over a fat person with similar qualifications. Use that thought to motivate you!
    1863 days ago
    I was wondering the other week how you were doing. I'm so glad you've come back to Spark. You will reach your goals!
    1863 days ago
    emoticon you can do it.
    1863 days ago
    Thank you all. The support definitely helps so much.
    1863 days ago
    Welcome back. I think most of us on here have started then stopped to start again. You have begun the right steps by picking yourself up from the side of the road and continuing your journey till completion. Take baby steps and know matter what keep moving forward!! emoticon emoticon
    1863 days ago
    welcome back!!! good luck on getting back into the saddle!
    1863 days ago
    Welcome back. I also was away for a couple years and gained it all back. Just force yourself to keep coming here every day...
    It works if we work it.

    1863 days ago
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