EE Team Member of the Week?!
Monday, April 15, 2013
I used to be fairly active in some of the groups here on Spark, but I haven't been in a long time. I think they're great, and the support absolutely cannot be topped. This site attracts some of the most warm, considerate, caring people I've ever encountered. Having a bad day? Post in one of the groups. You'll get a million responses ranging from cheerleader rah-rah-rah to suck it up, depending on which group it is. (Personally I prefer the tough love approach, but different strokes for different folks, right?)
Anyway, one of those groups I joined in the early days was Emotional Eaters, and for some completely mysterious reason despite my absence I was just named the EE Team Member of the Week.
Wow, thanks! I don't know why I was chosen (random name generator?) but over the weekend I was bombarded with SparkGoodies and posts on my page. It took me a minute to figure out what the hell was going on, but it felt great. That's the kind of support this site is so good for.
But here's the funny part - to me at least. I feel like I have largely won the battle with my emotions. Cookies are no longer my default approach to stress or boredom or sadness or anger. Do I mindlessly munch from time to time? Well, yes, but I'm not kidding that in the olden days if I had a bad meeting at work or got in a fight with a boyfriend I proceeded immediately to the bakery without passing go or collecting $200. Or stopping to understand that I was mad/sad/stressed/worried.
I don't do that anymore. When I have junk food - and trust me I still do sometimes! - it's measured, it's part of a balanced day, and most importantly I've processed what I'm thinking. Why do I want potato chips so much today? Am I trying to mindlessly stuff my face to avoid [emotion]? No? I am just really craving potato chips? Well, OK, I'll get a salad for dinner ... and potato chips for dessert.
I strongly believe that food should be enjoyed, and that it is not the enemy. If a brownie's going to make me happy, then dammit I'm getting a brownie. But that brownie is not a substitute for having and processing my feelings.
Damn, I've come a long way in the past several years.
So thanks, EE Team. For helping me work through all these demons and for your never-ending support and encouragement. You made my weekend!