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Showering Lilies accountability blog week 5

Sunday, April 14, 2013

Well it week 5, and I have been bobbing around 240 lbs for the last couple weeks. I am not even trying to lose weight or watch what I eat. I log everything to the best estimate of what I have eaten and I hate the number at the end of every day. You would think it would make me have a light bulb moment, but no, it just makes me want to not log my food anymore. I want to lose weight and I want to look super sexy and feel good about myself, but apparently the desire to eat a ton of junky food is way more overpowering. I have officially canceled my gym membership because we just weren't using it, and I have a ton of work out DVDs at home I can do and spring is here and I can do more activities outside. Having said all that, there is as you can see nothing stopping me from getting up and working out! So why don't I......I just don't know, I would rather just sit in my chair and computer surf allllll dayyyyyy. I know I have a huge problem with this, and I am not even being productive, just window shopping basically. My house is clean, my kids are fed, my new job is going well, but I lack the fire I had going into this challenge to work on me. I want it back, and I know all it takes is for me to get up and do some exercise and log my minutes and watch my calories for a few days and feel good about doing good. I hate feeling deprived, and even though when I do good on calories I can still eat what ever I want, just a little of it, I just can't get the whole thought of how much I want the whole pie and not just a piece. I am not being healthy and I am going to regret it if I don't get it under control. I technically have 4 weeks left of this challenge, and I know if I step up and do what I am supposed to I will reach my goal, So with that I will only have a little cake tonight and get my workout in, and log my fitness and do it again and again each day. ONE DAY AT A TIME!!!!
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  • OHEMVEE
    Everyone feels that way at some time. I think the hardest part is just not getting stuck in that feeling. I did exercise dvds for awhile and they were ok, but what really helped was just finding an exercise that I enjoyed more. I started walking (which eventually turned into running) because it gave me time to clear my mind and be outside in the fresh air. It was my time to focus on me because I deserved it. It might help to try out different types of exercise and see if something is more enjoyable to you. Also, like everyone else said, small changes are usually easier and better than no changes.

    tldr; It's totally normal to feel this way, but don't give up because you deserve to feel great emoticon
    2876 days ago
  • no profile photo CD13086761
    You are not alone! I think we all have our ups and downs and lose site of our motivation. I like to write down the things I really want to get out of being fit - my goals - my motivations and look at them first thing in the morning - I keep a little list on my dresser that way I can be reminded first thing each day. Even the smallest steps lead somewhere...
    2878 days ago
  • BTLNSDOLFIN
    I used to feel that way too. It took a lot to finally get me motivated and to do something about my weight problem. I almost died giving birth to my son. I was in the hospital for five days following the delivery and was unconscious for two of them with a breathing tube. I wasn't the first one to hold him or see him and I can never have that chance again. The reason this happened was not entirely due to being overweight (they don't know the whole reason(s) it happened), but the whole pregnancy I had some minor blood pressure issues and was tested for pre-eclampsia (sp?) twice. I want to have another child and be more healthy for it. After six months, I realized I was still wearing my maternity jeans. Time for a change! I started out slow and steady and lost 25 pounds just making a conscious effort to be more healthy. Then that started leveling off and I started swimming for exercise. It's the only exercise that I have found to be fun, free (for me-work benefit), and easy on the joints. I lost 50 more pounds after I started doing that and tracking my calories using the SparkPeople app on my phone. Now, after about six months of staying the same weight, I have started this challenge and made some more positive changes that are leading to more results. So I agree with the others in saying that it's more about small changes over a long time that make the difference and having a positive attitude and mentally saying things to yourself over and over that are healthy. Mind and body are very much connected and you can't begin to have a healthy body until you make your mind healthy. So keep moving forward and encourage yourself and if you don't give up and give in, you will finally see the results you want and need. emoticon I'm proud of you for sticking with it!
    2878 days ago
  • no profile photo CD11032977
    We all feel that way from time to time. Just try not to let it get you down. Keep pushing. I suggest to make one small change and stick with that for awhile and then once you are comfortable with it add another small change.

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    2878 days ago
  • LISA_SUMNER08
    I'm feeling the same way! I have every intention of doing well but for some reason I eat non stop! The only reason I'm able to get any cardio in is bc of BMX practice with the boys and being out there with them. But I want to get up in the mornings and do my Zumba. Haven't done it once since I bought the DVD set 6 wks ago! emoticon

    I'd be willing to do more accountability as well.
    2880 days ago
  • NAIRAHMAN
    You can do it darling! I know exactly how you feel because I have been teetering around my current weight as well - I get in my workouts but I just have been eating JUNK.

    One day at a time. If you need some extra accountability maybe we can find a way where we are getting on each other about sticking to our goals.


    2881 days ago
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