Some Big Changes ...

Sunday, April 14, 2013

Ive been going through a major family crisis, but that isnt what I came here to talk about. While Ive been going through it, I have felt these changes in my life ... I got this amazing job that I love and pays good. I cut my hair, and colored it blonde. Ive been evaluating what I want out of life, how I want to feel .. everyone sets these standards for themselves, and for those around them and I am wondering why I have let myself down in so many ways for 2 too many years now .. I no longer have a newborn, my newborn is 8 months old. Im getting my energy back and I have 35 pounds to lose. Ive let food control me, Ive let my husband control me, Ive let my kids control me .. they control my time, how I feel about myself and Im done with it. I will take care of myself, I will take care of my kids and my home. I will no longer take care of my husband .. Im not his mom .. Im not a slave, Im not a maid, Im not a butler or a servant .. I am a woman, who likes to smile, to have fun, to laugh! I had lost that .. but I had a breakthrough. Goodbye fat! Goodbye unreasonable expectations! Goodbye to being controlled! Hello new world!


My 8 month old baby doll, Leighton! The most amazing and beautiful baby.

Share This Post With Others
Member Comments About This Blog Post
    Thank you everyone for the encouragement! Im still holding strong, feeling very good about life now emoticon Ive been waking up early and going to the gym while everyone is still asleep, Ive been assigning chores and following through with them being done, Ive been taking "me" time. Ive been eating healthier, Ive almost totally stopped snacking ... I really feel by August (I will be 1 year Post-Partum) I will be at my Pre-Pregnancy weight! I even got myself a very cute outfit that makes me feel good about myself, to workout in! emoticon emoticon
    1885 days ago
    I had the same moment of enlightenment after 1 day on SP. It took me a while to realise but I have not been taking care of myself; I have not been a priority; I have put myself last on the list behind my husband and kids. Now that I meal plan and am excited to cook (for myself), the daily task doesn't seem so bad anymore. Grocery shopping doesn't seem so bad anymore. I work out because I'm excited to track and see progress, not just because it's my only window of time for myself. It's my exercise time. I make new 'me' time - not for doing anything I must account for. Just idle, dumb, mindless me time. I think this enlightenment must show because their has been significantly less stress in the air at home and I'm way more relaxed. I have focus now. You might be surprised at how your husband reacts when you take control of yourself and your life. Somebody has to drive. If you don't, he will. So get in the seat. Good luck! emoticon
    1889 days ago
    Your hair is cute! I love it!! Keep on keeping on! Unreasonable expectations are something you CAN overcome - it's good to reevaluate where you're at!! Way to go!! :-)
    1891 days ago
    Good for you. I left a controlling husband after 23 years. I wish I`d done it sooner. Good luck, you know you can do it. emoticon
    1891 days ago
  • Add Your Comment to the Blog Post

    Log in to post a comment

    Disclaimer: Weight loss results will vary from person to person. No individual result should be seen as a typical result of following the SparkPeople program.